Today I feel better than I have in the past week!
***WARNING*** this entry is a rant, dont' read if you don't want to hear me whine
I hate being sick and at school around people who aren't sick and living happy lives...
Valentines Day is dumb... but instead of ranting on how there shouldn't be a day to celebrate your someone special, because everyday should be that day, I'll tell ya about my Single's Awareness Day. My Tourism Prof gave us candy and we finished up watching a movie, but halfway through the movie I began coughing uncontrollably and had to leave class. Standing in the bathroom, slowly regaining my ability to breath, I wished I brought my bag with me so I could just go home, but no, I had to go back into the class, where I continued to muffle coughs while watching the rest of the movie. It sucked and was embarrassing. The plans for the night were to go out to Libby's (a bar) with some single friends and the best couple I know Jo and Mike and despite better judgement I did go. I shouldn't have drank though, being sick and all, but I was depressed and around drunk people and there was no way I was going to sit alone in my apartment being depressed on V-day. I drank and should have been drunk, but I was so sad that I didn't feel drunk and no one thought I was either. Granted I did have fun, I love those people, it wasn't til I was alone trying to sleep that I felt really sad. I did still some fake flowers that were on our table, so at least I can pretend I got flowers. They're in a cute little vase too!
I have been resting a lot this week, not going to Irish Night or out on Thurs or Friday, but my coughing has prevented any full nights sleep. Today is looking better though since I got to sleep in and my coughs have seemed to die down. I hate that being sick interrupted my workout routine too, my body is feeling it, granted I haven't been drinking and that is probably better for my body than working out.
Last night I felt an all time low when Faith was clearly getting ready to go out after saying that she didn't want to go to Biddy's, so I got into PJs. I told her I'd drive to Dover if she wanted to go there and she did one of her I don't care shrugs, so not wanting to go alone, I got into PJ's from my work clothes. Not until her ride was already here did she say to me, "you know you're invited don't you." I was pissed. No, if you don't invite me, I don't know I am invited and now you have to go and I can't get ready. I think I gave her a dirty look. I guess she went to Newmarket. And she was so loud when she came home, talking on her phone and then Tim came over...grrr... at least they didnt' sleep here. I felt she really didn't want me to go out with her, it hurt. So I stayed in feeling alone yet again and doing absolutely nothing.
blah. I want to be happy again. I hate feeling this way.
I hate being sick and at school around people who aren't sick and living happy lives...
Valentines Day is dumb... but instead of ranting on how there shouldn't be a day to celebrate your someone special, because everyday should be that day, I'll tell ya about my Single's Awareness Day. My Tourism Prof gave us candy and we finished up watching a movie, but halfway through the movie I began coughing uncontrollably and had to leave class. Standing in the bathroom, slowly regaining my ability to breath, I wished I brought my bag with me so I could just go home, but no, I had to go back into the class, where I continued to muffle coughs while watching the rest of the movie. It sucked and was embarrassing. The plans for the night were to go out to Libby's (a bar) with some single friends and the best couple I know Jo and Mike and despite better judgement I did go. I shouldn't have drank though, being sick and all, but I was depressed and around drunk people and there was no way I was going to sit alone in my apartment being depressed on V-day. I drank and should have been drunk, but I was so sad that I didn't feel drunk and no one thought I was either. Granted I did have fun, I love those people, it wasn't til I was alone trying to sleep that I felt really sad. I did still some fake flowers that were on our table, so at least I can pretend I got flowers. They're in a cute little vase too!
I have been resting a lot this week, not going to Irish Night or out on Thurs or Friday, but my coughing has prevented any full nights sleep. Today is looking better though since I got to sleep in and my coughs have seemed to die down. I hate that being sick interrupted my workout routine too, my body is feeling it, granted I haven't been drinking and that is probably better for my body than working out.
Last night I felt an all time low when Faith was clearly getting ready to go out after saying that she didn't want to go to Biddy's, so I got into PJs. I told her I'd drive to Dover if she wanted to go there and she did one of her I don't care shrugs, so not wanting to go alone, I got into PJ's from my work clothes. Not until her ride was already here did she say to me, "you know you're invited don't you." I was pissed. No, if you don't invite me, I don't know I am invited and now you have to go and I can't get ready. I think I gave her a dirty look. I guess she went to Newmarket. And she was so loud when she came home, talking on her phone and then Tim came over...grrr... at least they didnt' sleep here. I felt she really didn't want me to go out with her, it hurt. So I stayed in feeling alone yet again and doing absolutely nothing.
blah. I want to be happy again. I hate feeling this way.