trying to make this year better than the last
So I tend to fuck a lot of things up. Especially with guys. I don't have a good guy friend, actually I don't have a single guy friend that I tell things to. I fucked up my relationship with the one guy friend I really had, I miss him! A lot. I think he changed his number and then I changed my number and it has been so long since I have talked to him... He probably hates me. I hate me too for what I did. I was scared that I may have liked him for more than best friends and I know he liked me more, but I freaked and now I realized I probably fucked up something that could have been good. And no one who reads this even knows who I am talking about. I like that. Anyways, I am blabbering and I am sober so that is odd. I guess my goal for 22 is to not fuck things up as much...