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[bigblankhole]

i rollerbladed for an hour, did 30 minutes of ab work, and took Ania for a walk for an hour and half. I ate 1/3 of a cup of chicken fried rice.. about 300 calories. (I'm rounding up just b/c that's what I do) I need to eat another hundred but I had some gatorade. So I'm sure I reached my minimum of 400. I know I didn't yesterday.....so i made a

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[anonymous]

i have read your posts on the community page for a while and i think youre doing great. i am so proud of you for trying to better your life. truly i admire it. and i admire that marilyn monroe is your icon. she was the most beautiful woman ever. and she was a size 14. i wish more people knew that. i feel for you in a way i can't really explain. i am extremely overweight and have insulin resistance/ polycystic ovary disease. i am trying to cope with this in a healthy manner but lack motivation. your drive to do better (though in an area almost completely opposite from mine) inspires me. i don't dream of being skinny, i dream of being healthy. i wish you could see that you are beautiful. look at marilyn, she was healthy and stunning, but not a size zero. i wish more girls knew that. good luck with everything you do, and i know it is overwhelming, it is for me too, so take things slowly, baby steps is key. don't set goals that seem unrealistic or scary, don't even set goals if they intimidate you. just take it one bite, one walk, one thought at a time. i hope my position (as an overweight person) doesn't bother you, or you think less of the person that i am because of my shape, i just want you to know that others are stuggling to make things better for themselves too, and though anonymous, i am here for you. good luck, and don't necessarily be strong, be who you are and who you can be, one step at a time.

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[bigblankhole]

you are amazing.. thank you so much for your comment. I"m trying very hard to get better. It's a long process but I'm managing. You're free to comment on whatever you what. I promise that I will take things slow and attempt to get better :)One day at a time :)
Thank you again
~Madison

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[anonymous]

I know from reading your posts that you are strong, i can just tell. and i can tell by the things you talk about (jason, your puppy...) that there is so much love around you and so much life. and i see you trying to help people when they post about wanting to end their lives and you try to talk them out of their suicidal thoughts. i know from this that you value life. and how could you not when you have so much good in it. but it saddens me to know that you are still working out. i know it is easy to start and then not want to stop, but you just have to stop. you have to think of jason, and your puppy and you. because by continuing down that road, you are attempting suicide and are no different than anyone else. you don't realize who you are hurting when you hurt yourself. i am the same way. we need to change for ourselves and those we love. we need to value life, i know you can. you can.