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Well, it's been a while since I've been on here.
In the apartment, that is going well enough. Work is, yeah it's work... also well enough you could say. Guess that sums up my life, well enough, just not quite good enough. It's been so long trying to get things to feel right, no real progress. Not even sure what I'm looking for. I'm starting to think I might not ever settle down and just go from place to place, without satisfaction. Don't like the thought of that much but can't really do anything about it. These past few weeks have been riddled with problems, from all over different aspects of the life. Seems as if God is slapping me around trying to get me on the right heading, I just can't find it. All I know is there is something big missing in my life and until I can get it, everything will still feel empty.
The past few weeks have been busier. Doing more field excursions, getting ready to head to the Mid-East. Still no definite word on when we go, keeping us in the dark with everything. It will be good for me to go. Just don't know what to make of my unit. There is good leadership in it, just seems that when it hits a certain level, they don't care about the wellfare of us and are willing to cut corners to their end.
I find myself looking through all my pictures often. All the warm memories from back home, I miss them, but it cannot be like that again. I need to make a life I can call my own here, until then just feels like I belong nowhere.
In the apartment, that is going well enough. Work is, yeah it's work... also well enough you could say. Guess that sums up my life, well enough, just not quite good enough. It's been so long trying to get things to feel right, no real progress. Not even sure what I'm looking for. I'm starting to think I might not ever settle down and just go from place to place, without satisfaction. Don't like the thought of that much but can't really do anything about it. These past few weeks have been riddled with problems, from all over different aspects of the life. Seems as if God is slapping me around trying to get me on the right heading, I just can't find it. All I know is there is something big missing in my life and until I can get it, everything will still feel empty.
The past few weeks have been busier. Doing more field excursions, getting ready to head to the Mid-East. Still no definite word on when we go, keeping us in the dark with everything. It will be good for me to go. Just don't know what to make of my unit. There is good leadership in it, just seems that when it hits a certain level, they don't care about the wellfare of us and are willing to cut corners to their end.
I find myself looking through all my pictures often. All the warm memories from back home, I miss them, but it cannot be like that again. I need to make a life I can call my own here, until then just feels like I belong nowhere.