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Mothers day is just another day to me. I used to have some hope for it but, as time has moved on I've come to figure out my mom is useless Shes never made an effort to even try. When I was a kid she would call me and tell me she was comming to get me so I would go sit on the porch and wait for her. She would never show up then 2 days later she would call with some lame excuse why she didnt come. As a little kid that messes you up some inside I think I'm still messed up inside because of it. My mind sucks it records everything as pictures and videos that keep replaying in my head they wont go away. My best friend his mom is more of a mother to me than my own mother is. My sister was 5 when she left I was 8. People tell me well shes your mother you should try and fix things with her someday you will not have the chance Ive tried shes I dont know. Some people get sad around mothers day because they have lost their mother to early due to death. Mine just left I thought about writing her a note and tell her how I feel but I Dont know how well that would work. In other news Its finally warm outside and stuff is growing yay and my fish pond is jumping well not really I took all the goldfish out and I have one big koi and 2 little ones havent seen the little ones I hope they are still in there.
TJ
TJ