Things of late
After mother's heart attack, things sure changed for me. I feel my own future is in doubt and fairly fragile. Found out this week that the heart attack damaged a valve, why she is so easily winded. One valve isn't moving and isn't allowing other to close, they checked to see if the tendrils that attach to valve were still intact. Appears they were, so all I can do is encourage her to keep eating healthy and do her best.
As for me the shock of the whole thing has gotten me working out allot now and taking better care of myself. Starting to shape up and throwing on some mass. Trying to to look and feel better, forgot the added strength part as it shows up with my tempers. Think the irritability has been from lack of sleep.
Been almost a month since I slept right, haven't been able to determine what exactly is causing the insomnia. Worked out most issues that were pending with friends and such. Been thinking about my future and school, but it's all a blank for the most part. Right now I must continue to get back up on my feet and make the most of the time I have now.
It can be so damned frustrating trying to get started on anything, especially art. Wondering if anyone has gone through this. I feel like I'm in a field surrounded by obligations (jobs I said I'd do). I feel like I don't know what to take on first while trying to keep my motivation balanced with personal projects. I feel I'm good enough to tackle these things but where do I start?
As for me the shock of the whole thing has gotten me working out allot now and taking better care of myself. Starting to shape up and throwing on some mass. Trying to to look and feel better, forgot the added strength part as it shows up with my tempers. Think the irritability has been from lack of sleep.
Been almost a month since I slept right, haven't been able to determine what exactly is causing the insomnia. Worked out most issues that were pending with friends and such. Been thinking about my future and school, but it's all a blank for the most part. Right now I must continue to get back up on my feet and make the most of the time I have now.
It can be so damned frustrating trying to get started on anything, especially art. Wondering if anyone has gone through this. I feel like I'm in a field surrounded by obligations (jobs I said I'd do). I feel like I don't know what to take on first while trying to keep my motivation balanced with personal projects. I feel I'm good enough to tackle these things but where do I start?