this is going out to every1.. not just 1 person
i got a lot on my mind right now and its really hard to be friendly to everyone. its so easy to be a bitch. that sounds really bad, but its so true.
im sick of trying to make everyone happy. the marriott has opened my eyes so much to this. the people there are such assholes. one minute they are so nice to you and the next they are talking shit. but that this point im saying fuck it. cuz u kno wat, in 3 years i will be graduating AIC with a nursing degree and for all you fuckers who doubt me.. you can shove it. so what if i work 2 jobs and go to school. i can fucken do it. im so sick of always being doubted, by everyone. i dont have all the time in the world to devote to school, but neither does the mom of 6 in my anatomy class and shes still doing it. i go to class, i take notes, and i study when i can. i put my full effort forth and i will NOT be working at the marriott for the rest of my life and i will not be at bigy for my 10 years of service. fuck that.
god.. im so sick of everyone thinking im such the good girl, the nice person. "oh, shes so nice" actually, im not. dont fuck me over either. cuz it wont ever be the same again. trust is an easy thing to break and once its broken not all the pieces can be glued back together..forgive but never forget. you only get one life why live it with regret. right?! if you say something dont go back on it. do it. who cares what people might think or say. and if you do something, say you did. everyone learns from their mistakes, grow from them.
i feel like such a fucken preacher right now.
so now i got my mom bitching at me too. great. she says that i dont help out enough, i complain too much and im selfish. r u kidding me? im never home. and if i do go out im home by 10:15 so ron can go to work. ask any other 18 yr old to be home by 10:15 5 nights a week. NOT gunna happen. sorry im selfish and dont want my brother using my computer. or that i dont want to drive to holyoke to pick up my brothers uniform since he left it there. i just have too much going on right now i cant deal with it all.. i feel a breakdown coming on.. i really hafta go.
ugh... how am i supposed to study for finals with all this and more on my brain
im sick of trying to make everyone happy. the marriott has opened my eyes so much to this. the people there are such assholes. one minute they are so nice to you and the next they are talking shit. but that this point im saying fuck it. cuz u kno wat, in 3 years i will be graduating AIC with a nursing degree and for all you fuckers who doubt me.. you can shove it. so what if i work 2 jobs and go to school. i can fucken do it. im so sick of always being doubted, by everyone. i dont have all the time in the world to devote to school, but neither does the mom of 6 in my anatomy class and shes still doing it. i go to class, i take notes, and i study when i can. i put my full effort forth and i will NOT be working at the marriott for the rest of my life and i will not be at bigy for my 10 years of service. fuck that.
god.. im so sick of everyone thinking im such the good girl, the nice person. "oh, shes so nice" actually, im not. dont fuck me over either. cuz it wont ever be the same again. trust is an easy thing to break and once its broken not all the pieces can be glued back together..forgive but never forget. you only get one life why live it with regret. right?! if you say something dont go back on it. do it. who cares what people might think or say. and if you do something, say you did. everyone learns from their mistakes, grow from them.
i feel like such a fucken preacher right now.
so now i got my mom bitching at me too. great. she says that i dont help out enough, i complain too much and im selfish. r u kidding me? im never home. and if i do go out im home by 10:15 so ron can go to work. ask any other 18 yr old to be home by 10:15 5 nights a week. NOT gunna happen. sorry im selfish and dont want my brother using my computer. or that i dont want to drive to holyoke to pick up my brothers uniform since he left it there. i just have too much going on right now i cant deal with it all.. i feel a breakdown coming on.. i really hafta go.
ugh... how am i supposed to study for finals with all this and more on my brain