sick of being second best
christmas was good. everything has been going okay.
i feel like me n shawn have been really rocky. i dont think he sees it tho. just me. he seems to have all the time in the world to hang out with all his friends but when it comes to me "our schedules are busy" and i spend time with him maybe once a week. he does stop into bigy for 10 minutes here n there, but he never seems to have time to hang out.
like tonight. he was supposed to come over when he got out of work, well when he got out he called me n told me he was too tired and was going home instead. and on new years/ his birthday. he is hanging out wit his friends and im not allowed to go.. wtf is that shit.
i kno its just me being selfish and over reacting. thats why im not saying anything to him about it.
im just so angry. i just want to hang out wit him. when we first started talking he seemed to have all the time in the world for me. i would see him almost everyday. now its once a week.
fuck it.
i feel like me n shawn have been really rocky. i dont think he sees it tho. just me. he seems to have all the time in the world to hang out with all his friends but when it comes to me "our schedules are busy" and i spend time with him maybe once a week. he does stop into bigy for 10 minutes here n there, but he never seems to have time to hang out.
like tonight. he was supposed to come over when he got out of work, well when he got out he called me n told me he was too tired and was going home instead. and on new years/ his birthday. he is hanging out wit his friends and im not allowed to go.. wtf is that shit.
i kno its just me being selfish and over reacting. thats why im not saying anything to him about it.
im just so angry. i just want to hang out wit him. when we first started talking he seemed to have all the time in the world for me. i would see him almost everyday. now its once a week.
fuck it.