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[bigail]

so i was really irritated today.. by everything.. my mom especially.. we went to lunch and she kept saying 'you can get this' or 'you can get that'.. yeah no shit, i know how to read a freakin menu.. i'm not 5.. then in the car i was trying to put my earring back in slowly because my ear's been sore lately, and she starts trying to tell me how to put it in.. wtf.. how long have i been wearing earrings???? so then i got all frustrated and dropped the earring under the seat of the car.. after i found it she wouldn't even talk anymore.. i asked her what was wrong.. "nothing, i just need to be quiet from now on".. wow thanks for making me feel like an ass.. whatever, i know she's just upset because she decided to take a break from being a mother and now when she's finally trying to be one again i'm about to leave and she really missed her chance.. i understand that.. i get it.. but i'm not going to make up for lost time.. i've always been here.. she's the one who left.. but now i get to leave.. and i'm excited about it.. not because i want to make my mother miserable.. i want her to be happy.. but i'm excited to move out because i want to know what it's like to be on my own.. and i want to prove to myself (and to my mom) that i can handle it..
anyways, i am not feeling as irritated.. sara and michele, you guys are the best gay people ever..
and p.s. i want that channel in our apartment.

my horoscope for today:
Take a deep breath, and let it out slowly. Whatever that was that you've been going through lately is over -- or will be as of this evening. In the meantime, keep reminding yourself of how strong you are.

that better be true.. i am so tired of being in a bad mood.. and i'm sure other people are tired of it too.
okay i'm going to go curl up on the futon with my cat and watch roseanne.. sounds like heaven.