Killing me softly with her silence.
Everybody is familar with the days after a Loved one passes away. I have had that feeling in my gut for a while now but without the tears. Excess salt water has made my cheeks so rawr that it hurts to smile; I'm depleted. Every sunny day fills my head with clouds. I really do feel as if I lost my better half. This sucks. I never missed talking to someone before. I never missed hearing her voice. It never phased me, but I guess times have changed. I do not know what to do. I've lost more than I can afford to replace. Sometimes a connection is so strong, so fast, thats it is a little scary. Just like in chemisty I guess. Those two elements bond so fast and so strong that the scientists know that their bond will not last...and might even explode...But that's the beauty of it...those scientists know that when this happens something great is in the working. They dedicate their time to resolve a way to get these two elements to stay connected...they know if they accomplish this...the two elements would make a great team. Sigh..a great team..That takes hard work and time..I'm a patient fellow, but waiting for this is killing me softly. But what can I do? Rushing just causes stress, which nobody needs. All I can do is sit down in my seat and wait...watching the people pass me by...waiting, and hoping that one, that one special one, will walk through that doorway to say hello...I miss being the best friend she never had =(