many sided coin
my brain has been in over drive thinking?
I just been wondering about some many situations about things and how to explain them in a profound way to make it seem alright.
when i think about this, it makes me nervous, makes me scared, makes me think weird!
i just daydream of those actions and see what kind of consequences comes with it and the happiness that may drift with it. I sing the songs of how i feel and how i want to feel.
I just think, think so much. I think so much that i could make a "dramatic" speech about displaying my own thoughts, my own opposition, my own opinion of why this is it? why this should happen? why this should even be?
u know, its hard out there, time is so little that it may seem like seconds. it feels like after time goes fast, we all try to catch up with it to return to our daily lives. everything is infected by our decisions. I know, i already see it.
I look outside my blinds, just hoping to see you come up those steps, i anticipate u at my front doors steps every time i come, i wish you would surprise me in my room when i come home from everything. I just dream a lot huh?
you say i'm changing everyday? i've been thinking about that a lot, and i'm thinking...i'm becoming a man! *runs under the bed* its true and crazy! i'm gonna turn 22 soon and i'm already livin alone, working, going to school, and just living life in different ways now. You say i'm changing? i also thought, hey maybe yer changing me, u know. changing me to a better person, to something that i always wanted to be but its scary cause i never been like that, never had someone around me all the time, someone to display feelings even if its dreamy u know. Its something new to me too yo, but oh well, gotta go with the flow haha!
what else is in my mind?
my meds? my orange juice? the things i gotta do?
so much is in my mind at this moment, maybe i should go to class and be given more ideas so my mind can be even more jumpy!! :)!
i love it when i think, makes it worth something to have a brain!!
I just been wondering about some many situations about things and how to explain them in a profound way to make it seem alright.
when i think about this, it makes me nervous, makes me scared, makes me think weird!
i just daydream of those actions and see what kind of consequences comes with it and the happiness that may drift with it. I sing the songs of how i feel and how i want to feel.
I just think, think so much. I think so much that i could make a "dramatic" speech about displaying my own thoughts, my own opposition, my own opinion of why this is it? why this should happen? why this should even be?
u know, its hard out there, time is so little that it may seem like seconds. it feels like after time goes fast, we all try to catch up with it to return to our daily lives. everything is infected by our decisions. I know, i already see it.
I look outside my blinds, just hoping to see you come up those steps, i anticipate u at my front doors steps every time i come, i wish you would surprise me in my room when i come home from everything. I just dream a lot huh?
you say i'm changing everyday? i've been thinking about that a lot, and i'm thinking...i'm becoming a man! *runs under the bed* its true and crazy! i'm gonna turn 22 soon and i'm already livin alone, working, going to school, and just living life in different ways now. You say i'm changing? i also thought, hey maybe yer changing me, u know. changing me to a better person, to something that i always wanted to be but its scary cause i never been like that, never had someone around me all the time, someone to display feelings even if its dreamy u know. Its something new to me too yo, but oh well, gotta go with the flow haha!
what else is in my mind?
my meds? my orange juice? the things i gotta do?
so much is in my mind at this moment, maybe i should go to class and be given more ideas so my mind can be even more jumpy!! :)!
i love it when i think, makes it worth something to have a brain!!