WHAT WAS I THINKING??

[big_kid_rocks]

Its funny how I seem to have already written a song that just brings it home for me, for every emotion or trying circumstance that I'm currently experiencing...its like my life is on repeat, and honestly i don't think i'm old enough to say I've lived my life twice, but I sure am making the same damn mistakes, and getting into the same damn hot situations. My therapist (sorry I've been LAfied) tells me we almost always fall into the same damn pattern in our lives, and will continue to do so, even AFTER realisation, that it takes time, from the point of realisation, to go in another direction. But maybe it feels good to feel bad, and as a guy who writes songs and shit, I think I may have what they call the "Tortured Artist Syndrome", but then again, I think I'm probably just a fucking fool.

On that note, here's an angry song, just for me. (ACTUALLY, I mean FROM me, to YOU :))

WHAT WERE YOU THINKING

Listen up, I don’t mean to criticise
But you just sit idly by
And sigh...ay...ay..e-ah-ay...

You know the truth, but live a lie
You’ve got blinkers on your eyes
They blind...ay..ay...e-ah-ay...

Pre-Chorus:
He’s a fool, in disguise
Thinks it’s cool, (to) make you cry
All day long, he gets high
(He) can’t save his own life

Comes along, bumps your ride
Knocks up chicks, on the side
Now he’s back, for second tries
And you let him back in

Chorus:
You let him back into your life
What were you thinking
When you let him back into your life
What were you thinking

I come along, you realise
Said you want somebody nice
So I try...ay...ay..e-ah-ay
But when we kiss, he’s on your mind
You speak of him all the time
I wanna die..ay..ay..e-ah-ay...

-JO