Another day
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My day started out ok, or so I thought. When I got to work my manager started bitching about things, i mostly heard blah, blah, blah. I tried to keep my cool while he ran his mouth. I was starting to get stressed, when our new regional manager came by. She didn't come in, but the district manager did. Sandy, DM, doesn't bother me in the least.
Cody came in, & was in a pissy mood. I was trying to get the new trashcans situated when her started running his mouth. I told him to hold off on what he was doing for a minute, so that I could get out of his way. No, he had to keep running his mouth. I warned him that I was trying to keep from having an anxiety attack, but he started cussing me. Then he accused me of being hateful, & continued to cuss me. I'm not really sure what he said when I started to go off, but I told him that I wasn't trying to be hateful, but I could be if he didn't stop.
Cody stomped out of the store & quit. I tried to explain to Mikey what happened, while still trying to maintain composure. Then Mikey turned to Sherry & asked if the managers ran night shift or did the crew. I told him that I wasn't trying to run the shift. He snapped at me, & I snapped.
I started to hyperventilate, turned pale, & couldn't speak. I tried calling friends, but no one would answer, which then escalated me to a full blown anxiety/panic attack. I thought about just walking out, but something kept me from doing so. Not sure what , but I still have my job, I was just sent home. However, while waiting for my replacement to show I had another anxiety attack. Needless to say my stress, anxiety, & adrenaline were very high. I didn't know if I wanted to cry, scream, hide, pull out my hair, or die.
I was able to send out a mass text message to all my friends in my phone, it was simple, "I just had a full blown anxiety attack". With that message sent to all my friends, my phone blew up with messages & calls of concern. Instead of hiding by saying I was fine, I told my friends the truth. When they asked if I was ok, I answered no. I'm so glad that I have such a great chosen family. Hugs, kisses, screams, & tears to them all.
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My day started out ok, or so I thought. When I got to work my manager started bitching about things, i mostly heard blah, blah, blah. I tried to keep my cool while he ran his mouth. I was starting to get stressed, when our new regional manager came by. She didn't come in, but the district manager did. Sandy, DM, doesn't bother me in the least.
Cody came in, & was in a pissy mood. I was trying to get the new trashcans situated when her started running his mouth. I told him to hold off on what he was doing for a minute, so that I could get out of his way. No, he had to keep running his mouth. I warned him that I was trying to keep from having an anxiety attack, but he started cussing me. Then he accused me of being hateful, & continued to cuss me. I'm not really sure what he said when I started to go off, but I told him that I wasn't trying to be hateful, but I could be if he didn't stop.
Cody stomped out of the store & quit. I tried to explain to Mikey what happened, while still trying to maintain composure. Then Mikey turned to Sherry & asked if the managers ran night shift or did the crew. I told him that I wasn't trying to run the shift. He snapped at me, & I snapped.
I started to hyperventilate, turned pale, & couldn't speak. I tried calling friends, but no one would answer, which then escalated me to a full blown anxiety/panic attack. I thought about just walking out, but something kept me from doing so. Not sure what , but I still have my job, I was just sent home. However, while waiting for my replacement to show I had another anxiety attack. Needless to say my stress, anxiety, & adrenaline were very high. I didn't know if I wanted to cry, scream, hide, pull out my hair, or die.
I was able to send out a mass text message to all my friends in my phone, it was simple, "I just had a full blown anxiety attack". With that message sent to all my friends, my phone blew up with messages & calls of concern. Instead of hiding by saying I was fine, I told my friends the truth. When they asked if I was ok, I answered no. I'm so glad that I have such a great chosen family. Hugs, kisses, screams, & tears to them all.
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