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soooo......things with the rents continue to be bad. i can't please them anymore. even when i am willing to give up something that i really want to do. i guess that's my people pleasing side coming out. but yeah. i'm fed up with it all. i can't wait till i can get out of there. i need to make up a budget and get money stuff figured out. i wish i was had taken 2 English classes last semester, or at least taken something over the summer. that way i could graduate early. then i could be working full time right now and getting even more money than i am right now. all of that's going to change soon though. if i need to i guess i'll go back to curtis orchard this summer. i know i won't want to, but if it means getting more money than that will be awesome. cuz most of you know that i will definitly need it after the next couple months. i wish i could tell you all what i'm really talking about, but i guess if you really want to know then you can email me or call me. i'm pretty sure you all know one of two. if not, my email is big_d_olb_06@yahoo.com.
so today shaylee left. i was fine until i finally had to say goodbye to her. i was the last one besides the dillman family, and lets just say that was one of the hardest things i've had to do in a long time. she's one of my closest and bestest friends. we've only been friends for about 2 years, and have no clue as to how it all happened, but we've grown so close we call each other sisters. she is definitly one i will have as my bridesmaid. but now she is down in st. louis. miles away. not as far as cassie, but still farther away than i would like. it's been a rough day. one i definitly don't want to relive. at least not the whole goodbye part. that's killer. i was trying so hard not to cry but when your best moves away and didn't really get to spend much time with them their last few hours in town, you begin to feel very lonely and time passes by really quickly. i'm gonna start crying just thinking about it. i can't though, cuz i'm at work. i'll probably cry later tonight when i get off. but then i'll have blake's shoulder to cry on. that'll help some, but still, he could never replace shaylee. she's one of a kind. one that i will always share hours of laughter with. *ab workouts!!* i can share anything with that girl and not feel judged. i will always remember when i needed to tell her something very personal, and her being the first to know, it was the hardest and it took me 20 min. of driving down a straight road until i could finally tell her. but she was patient and listened and didn't judge. that was the big thing. she doesn't judge. she still loves no matter what, and it's the same love. it's never more, never less. always constant. i can't imagine not having her just 2 min. away if i need her. now she's hours away. wow! i knew this was gonna be hard, but i didn't expect it to be this hard!!! why does life have to throw you curve balls at the weirdest moments? most of the time at the worst moments!!! i know that i can probably call her anytime though and talk. and there's always email. if it wasn't for email, i don't know what i'd do. it's my main source of communication between the 2 bestest girls in the whole wide world!!!!!!!! i love you two sooo much!!!!!! we are definitly like the sisterhood of the traveling pants. i found the soundtrack online and if i can get it in a store then i will, if not then i'll buy it off line from walmart or something. but the 4 of us are definitly going to each have a copy. alrighty, welp i better end this before i start to cry again. i had to take a break for a little while and balance my drawer cuz i was tearing up so bad. i love you two like crazy!!!!!! we have to all get together this summer and hang out!!!! it's gonna be a blast!!!!! only 3 more months!!!!!!!
so today shaylee left. i was fine until i finally had to say goodbye to her. i was the last one besides the dillman family, and lets just say that was one of the hardest things i've had to do in a long time. she's one of my closest and bestest friends. we've only been friends for about 2 years, and have no clue as to how it all happened, but we've grown so close we call each other sisters. she is definitly one i will have as my bridesmaid. but now she is down in st. louis. miles away. not as far as cassie, but still farther away than i would like. it's been a rough day. one i definitly don't want to relive. at least not the whole goodbye part. that's killer. i was trying so hard not to cry but when your best moves away and didn't really get to spend much time with them their last few hours in town, you begin to feel very lonely and time passes by really quickly. i'm gonna start crying just thinking about it. i can't though, cuz i'm at work. i'll probably cry later tonight when i get off. but then i'll have blake's shoulder to cry on. that'll help some, but still, he could never replace shaylee. she's one of a kind. one that i will always share hours of laughter with. *ab workouts!!* i can share anything with that girl and not feel judged. i will always remember when i needed to tell her something very personal, and her being the first to know, it was the hardest and it took me 20 min. of driving down a straight road until i could finally tell her. but she was patient and listened and didn't judge. that was the big thing. she doesn't judge. she still loves no matter what, and it's the same love. it's never more, never less. always constant. i can't imagine not having her just 2 min. away if i need her. now she's hours away. wow! i knew this was gonna be hard, but i didn't expect it to be this hard!!! why does life have to throw you curve balls at the weirdest moments? most of the time at the worst moments!!! i know that i can probably call her anytime though and talk. and there's always email. if it wasn't for email, i don't know what i'd do. it's my main source of communication between the 2 bestest girls in the whole wide world!!!!!!!! i love you two sooo much!!!!!! we are definitly like the sisterhood of the traveling pants. i found the soundtrack online and if i can get it in a store then i will, if not then i'll buy it off line from walmart or something. but the 4 of us are definitly going to each have a copy. alrighty, welp i better end this before i start to cry again. i had to take a break for a little while and balance my drawer cuz i was tearing up so bad. i love you two like crazy!!!!!! we have to all get together this summer and hang out!!!! it's gonna be a blast!!!!! only 3 more months!!!!!!!