Not too shabby!!
JLaw had tremors last night. i had awoke from a nap and went to check her. she was laying there just watching herself shake. im mad that she didnt come get me. i sat with her for 2 hours and held her hand, and then, i went to the ER with her, again. no, Matt, i am not a lesbian. you know you wouldn't want it that way. ;)
i came back and sat in the SAC with Josh waiting for Mom #3 to call and report on JLaw. he tried to help me get some work done, but i was just so worried.
i spent all night talking to TushTiff. got in the shower at 11:30. i came to my room to be graced with a convo with Dottie. *ugh* Marcie and Katilyn came in to talk. i hope that i helped Marcie. then, i went to Rachel's room to talk about my weekend. however, the night was concluded with the best part of all. i talked to Matt for the first time in.....wow, in way too long. he always puts a smile on my face. it's so weird, though. i mean, we've never even met. we just connect.
thanks for calling, Matt. i hope that things get better. hang in there. thanks for your honesty. it meant a lot. try to get unbusy soon, okay?
so, i was up talking to him until 4. slept for 2.5 hours before going outside to be told that i woke up for nothing. the weather was too windy for the hot air balloon to take off. however, i had to stay up bc i hadn't done any work. it sucked. my school day is over. i managed to survive my Tuesday schedule. :)
Teyei called me last night. he was told that i wasnt in the room. i dont know why he called. he was suppose to call me back 2 weeks ago. he ruined it. he lied to me. i cant stand that. i dont care what you did. its cool as long as you tell me the truth. im not close-minded like i use to be. i dont even know what he wants out of the relationship. does he want to be friends or more? i wasnt really thinking that before YingYang told me that he refers to me as his Milkshake. dont ask.
i talked to Kourtney this w/e. he lied to me again, too. guys always lie to me. Jamie tells me that they lie to get in my pants. they dont seem to realize that it henders them from that goal. i cant get close to a guy that i know doesnt respect me enough to be honest. anyway, he said he had to go finish his laundry. prob is that i never close my aim windows. its just a habit. so, i know that he was online for another 40 min. he just didnt want to talk to me. yeah, i know. get over it. its not that easy. he was my life last year. i now realize how pathetic that is. i cant help it. im thinking about taking TushTiff's advice and emailing him. i just need closure. our relationship is over....whatever it was. lol....thats so sad. i never figured it out.
the one guy that sparks my interest is impossible at the moment. the time obviously isnt working out. it sucks to want something so bad and being incapable of having it.
i came back and sat in the SAC with Josh waiting for Mom #3 to call and report on JLaw. he tried to help me get some work done, but i was just so worried.
i spent all night talking to TushTiff. got in the shower at 11:30. i came to my room to be graced with a convo with Dottie. *ugh* Marcie and Katilyn came in to talk. i hope that i helped Marcie. then, i went to Rachel's room to talk about my weekend. however, the night was concluded with the best part of all. i talked to Matt for the first time in.....wow, in way too long. he always puts a smile on my face. it's so weird, though. i mean, we've never even met. we just connect.
thanks for calling, Matt. i hope that things get better. hang in there. thanks for your honesty. it meant a lot. try to get unbusy soon, okay?
so, i was up talking to him until 4. slept for 2.5 hours before going outside to be told that i woke up for nothing. the weather was too windy for the hot air balloon to take off. however, i had to stay up bc i hadn't done any work. it sucked. my school day is over. i managed to survive my Tuesday schedule. :)
Teyei called me last night. he was told that i wasnt in the room. i dont know why he called. he was suppose to call me back 2 weeks ago. he ruined it. he lied to me. i cant stand that. i dont care what you did. its cool as long as you tell me the truth. im not close-minded like i use to be. i dont even know what he wants out of the relationship. does he want to be friends or more? i wasnt really thinking that before YingYang told me that he refers to me as his Milkshake. dont ask.
i talked to Kourtney this w/e. he lied to me again, too. guys always lie to me. Jamie tells me that they lie to get in my pants. they dont seem to realize that it henders them from that goal. i cant get close to a guy that i know doesnt respect me enough to be honest. anyway, he said he had to go finish his laundry. prob is that i never close my aim windows. its just a habit. so, i know that he was online for another 40 min. he just didnt want to talk to me. yeah, i know. get over it. its not that easy. he was my life last year. i now realize how pathetic that is. i cant help it. im thinking about taking TushTiff's advice and emailing him. i just need closure. our relationship is over....whatever it was. lol....thats so sad. i never figured it out.
the one guy that sparks my interest is impossible at the moment. the time obviously isnt working out. it sucks to want something so bad and being incapable of having it.