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So, I haven't posted in a while and I suddenly have a strong desire to do so. I think it had something to do with the song I'm listening to. It's 'Beautiful(You Are) by IMX. I don't know where to start....
I met this guy, Jonathon Beverely. I don't even know where to start. This guy is incredible. Lol...I really don't know what to say. I have no way to explain how special he is or how he makes me feel. Just thinkin about him puts a smile on my face. He seems so perfect. So much that I find myself doubting whether he is lying to me. Then, I look in his eyes and see the way that he looks at me, and I can't help but convince myself that he's too genuine for that. I know, it sounds ridiculous. I've only known him for a week and a half, but....let me just put it this way.
I told him that I have a rule that in order to have a relationship, a one year friendship is required. I told him that I have learned from past experiences that it is much better to make sure that you truly know the other person before you get that emotionally attached and wind-up realizing you made a mistake. He told me that he was willing to do whatever it took or wait however long it takes. Now, any girl knows that you are not suppose to actually believe this. Most guys say it to make you think that they are willing to play by your rules, but in a few weeks they have you goin your ways. So, as much as I wanted to believe him, I was hesitant and observed him. A few days later he was getting ready to bring me back to my dorm and grabbed me. He looked me dead in the eyes and told me, "I was serious about what I said." I was confused and asked him, "Serious about what?" His perfect little answer....ah...He asked me if I really wanted to wait that long, and when I told him that I didn't know. He said,"Well, I just want you to know that I'm up to it, if that's what you want. You comfort is my priority. Whatever you need me to do, I'm for it." *beaming*
For some reason, I know that this is true. The way he looks at me, the way he holds me, the things he says, and the way he says things ensures that there is no way that he can't be for real. He's the one thing that seems to make everything else go away. When we're together, I think of nothing else. I forget how unhappy I am here and how much I miss Anthony. I forget about the problems in the world, whether globally or in my tiny bubble. For when we're together, I'm lost in the way that he looks at me. It's during that time, that I feel like the queen who is undestructable and has no flaws. I feel like the one person who has everything she needs, and for now, that's all I need.
I met this guy, Jonathon Beverely. I don't even know where to start. This guy is incredible. Lol...I really don't know what to say. I have no way to explain how special he is or how he makes me feel. Just thinkin about him puts a smile on my face. He seems so perfect. So much that I find myself doubting whether he is lying to me. Then, I look in his eyes and see the way that he looks at me, and I can't help but convince myself that he's too genuine for that. I know, it sounds ridiculous. I've only known him for a week and a half, but....let me just put it this way.
I told him that I have a rule that in order to have a relationship, a one year friendship is required. I told him that I have learned from past experiences that it is much better to make sure that you truly know the other person before you get that emotionally attached and wind-up realizing you made a mistake. He told me that he was willing to do whatever it took or wait however long it takes. Now, any girl knows that you are not suppose to actually believe this. Most guys say it to make you think that they are willing to play by your rules, but in a few weeks they have you goin your ways. So, as much as I wanted to believe him, I was hesitant and observed him. A few days later he was getting ready to bring me back to my dorm and grabbed me. He looked me dead in the eyes and told me, "I was serious about what I said." I was confused and asked him, "Serious about what?" His perfect little answer....ah...He asked me if I really wanted to wait that long, and when I told him that I didn't know. He said,"Well, I just want you to know that I'm up to it, if that's what you want. You comfort is my priority. Whatever you need me to do, I'm for it." *beaming*
For some reason, I know that this is true. The way he looks at me, the way he holds me, the things he says, and the way he says things ensures that there is no way that he can't be for real. He's the one thing that seems to make everything else go away. When we're together, I think of nothing else. I forget how unhappy I am here and how much I miss Anthony. I forget about the problems in the world, whether globally or in my tiny bubble. For when we're together, I'm lost in the way that he looks at me. It's during that time, that I feel like the queen who is undestructable and has no flaws. I feel like the one person who has everything she needs, and for now, that's all I need.