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"Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how i
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart"
~ Maroon 5's Sweetest Goodbye
I found out a little while ago that Kourtney is definitely coming for the weekend. I don't know how I truly feel about it. I don't think I really want him here. It's hard to explain. I am so confused about the whole situation. I just hope that this weekend puts an end to things. I hope that he does something that will force me to move on with things. I only wish that y'all understood. Noone has any idea how much it hurts me when I see him. I know that everyone wants me to move on. I do too. Y'all have to know that. However, he still means the world to me and I don't know why. I thought that things would be over with by now. We'll see what happens this weekend and how he does me. The only problem is that as bad as I want him to hurt me so I can move on, I pray that he doesn't. I really don't know how I would take it or how I would handle it. I can't even begin to talk about how I feel about everything these days.
My life is about to change and I'm not sure I'm as ready as I thought I was a few weeks ago.
I may go visit American University next week. That'll be fun.
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how i
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart"
~ Maroon 5's Sweetest Goodbye
I found out a little while ago that Kourtney is definitely coming for the weekend. I don't know how I truly feel about it. I don't think I really want him here. It's hard to explain. I am so confused about the whole situation. I just hope that this weekend puts an end to things. I hope that he does something that will force me to move on with things. I only wish that y'all understood. Noone has any idea how much it hurts me when I see him. I know that everyone wants me to move on. I do too. Y'all have to know that. However, he still means the world to me and I don't know why. I thought that things would be over with by now. We'll see what happens this weekend and how he does me. The only problem is that as bad as I want him to hurt me so I can move on, I pray that he doesn't. I really don't know how I would take it or how I would handle it. I can't even begin to talk about how I feel about everything these days.
My life is about to change and I'm not sure I'm as ready as I thought I was a few weeks ago.
I may go visit American University next week. That'll be fun.