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just kidding. i cant erase it.
anyway..ive come to realize that i dont need this. i dont need peoples shit. i dont need anyones advice. i dont need to gossip. i dont need to lie. im me. and if you dont like me i can care less. dont be afraid of telling me that you dont like me either..cause if you dont like me i probably dont like you. yes ive fucked up my life. but ive come to realize that high school is bull shit and drama combined into 4 years of your life and when you leave youre gunna look back and laugh at all the stupid shit youve ever done. and you might want to look at it another way..what if god forbid somebody you cared for so much for a long time and then all of a sudden hated with a passion dies..you cant tell them youre sorry. you cant tell them how you felt. youll never have the chance again. thats one of the reasons i hate calabasas. one of the many reasons why i cant wait to leave so badly. people hold grudges for the stupidest reasons. people make up shit just so they can have something to talk about. people dont have the courage to talk shit to your face so they have to say it behind your back. maybe im just blabbering but im saying this because ive done it. ill be honest. honesty is the path ive chosen to take from now on because i hurt a lot of people not being honest to them and ive been hurt by people from them not being honest to me and other people will get hurt because some people arent being honest to them and theyll find out and get hurt and so on and so on. ive also come to realize that if youre gunna be a true friend you cant lie. you have to tell the truth 100 percent because if you are a true friend then youre not gunna judge the other person. you should like them for who they are. in my opinion, friends stick together. if you fuck up, yes your friends will get mad but they should learn to forgive you because thats what friends do and obviouslly the person that fucked up cared enough to apologize and cry and tell you.and your friends should eventually look past all the stupid things. to me, brittany berman is my perfect example. she is one person that looked past all this shit. she was welcoming to me when this kid shredded my heart and she has been there for me through the best and worst of times. i can honestly say that brittany berman is a true best friend. so thanks britt. i love you. and one more thing before i conclude. i want everyone to be happy. thats all i want. so if you are happy then i am happy. i think a can honestly say im becoming content. took me a while and few little outbursts but ill be ok. thanks to everyone who cares enough to look past all the shit ive done and to all the people who arent afraid to tell me how you feel to my face. you guys are true friends and i love all of you. see you on the flip side.(ive always wanted to say that)
anyway..ive come to realize that i dont need this. i dont need peoples shit. i dont need anyones advice. i dont need to gossip. i dont need to lie. im me. and if you dont like me i can care less. dont be afraid of telling me that you dont like me either..cause if you dont like me i probably dont like you. yes ive fucked up my life. but ive come to realize that high school is bull shit and drama combined into 4 years of your life and when you leave youre gunna look back and laugh at all the stupid shit youve ever done. and you might want to look at it another way..what if god forbid somebody you cared for so much for a long time and then all of a sudden hated with a passion dies..you cant tell them youre sorry. you cant tell them how you felt. youll never have the chance again. thats one of the reasons i hate calabasas. one of the many reasons why i cant wait to leave so badly. people hold grudges for the stupidest reasons. people make up shit just so they can have something to talk about. people dont have the courage to talk shit to your face so they have to say it behind your back. maybe im just blabbering but im saying this because ive done it. ill be honest. honesty is the path ive chosen to take from now on because i hurt a lot of people not being honest to them and ive been hurt by people from them not being honest to me and other people will get hurt because some people arent being honest to them and theyll find out and get hurt and so on and so on. ive also come to realize that if youre gunna be a true friend you cant lie. you have to tell the truth 100 percent because if you are a true friend then youre not gunna judge the other person. you should like them for who they are. in my opinion, friends stick together. if you fuck up, yes your friends will get mad but they should learn to forgive you because thats what friends do and obviouslly the person that fucked up cared enough to apologize and cry and tell you.and your friends should eventually look past all the stupid things. to me, brittany berman is my perfect example. she is one person that looked past all this shit. she was welcoming to me when this kid shredded my heart and she has been there for me through the best and worst of times. i can honestly say that brittany berman is a true best friend. so thanks britt. i love you. and one more thing before i conclude. i want everyone to be happy. thats all i want. so if you are happy then i am happy. i think a can honestly say im becoming content. took me a while and few little outbursts but ill be ok. thanks to everyone who cares enough to look past all the shit ive done and to all the people who arent afraid to tell me how you feel to my face. you guys are true friends and i love all of you. see you on the flip side.(ive always wanted to say that)