another day in my life
So I am gonna update again weeeeeeeeeeeeee. Life is going fine. Still same shit different day mostly. Work is either really fun or extremely lame and shitty. Whatever. I love all my coworkers but I hate having to deal with crazy customers. I honestly don't understand how some people act so rude to people. I am sorry that you misordered your pizza but no fucking yell at me for it. Not my problem that you are a fucktard who is too incompitent to order some pizza. It was heather's (one of the drivers) birthday on sunday so I made a cake and brought it in and my manager tim bought some ice cream and we had a nice little party. It was fun and we just sat around till it got super busy and ugh. But yeah, I enjoy my job when its good. The RGM is gone all week but I have to close with the lame manager every night but whatever.
Love life is going good as usual. Me and Rob are doing better than ever. We spent some time today at a sports bar palying video hold 'em and I was doing pretty good for a while but then I lost my streak of luck hahaha. Oh well. It was fun to just spend some stress free time with him. I have been getting up around noon and he is usually already out working his taxi stuff by the time I wake up so I don't get to see him all that often these days. He is probably going to be gone for a few weeks in July as long as he has enough money to help with the bills. I am going to be sad to see him leave, but the time apart will be good. I have been feeling more and more lately that I need a little bit more space sometimes so that will be good to have some alone time for a while. I love the man but sometimes I just need my space lol.
Dancey dance games oh girl. Well I am basically done with ddr. There is honestly nothing left for me with ddr. I don't like that I have peaked out and at a place where I am basically screwed for competitive purposes. If I wanted to not step on tempo with the music to get good scores I would play pump hahaha. But seriously. If a song is straight forward and on sync I more than likely have it AAA'ed. If it is too easy or too streamy and off sync I will NEVER AAA it so I am over it. I know when stuff drifts and how and how I should step but I just doesn't work. What is even more fun when the arcade you play at sucks ass. I AAA'ed dynamite rave saturday with two pad greats, from white flashes to a great back to white flashes. Fucking bullshit. In eighth notes. Fuck it. The center panel on the good side moves around and feels weird since I don't step in the center of the arrows and I partially step on the center panel. The other side has shitty arrows. Oh and each arrow has two sensors. ITG is a namco cab that sucks. I like getting pad excellents on anything over 145 BPM or over a 10. I love blue comboing songs with dropped freezes and pad mines. I play on them anyway to keep up my stamina and become familiar with charts. Somedays they are good, like when I tristarred over the rave and LED G on them. And some days I fail birdie (though its a really hard song). I am pretty down on the whole thing honestly and it's extremely frustrating. I wish I had played ITG more when I was living near GOM and gotten a chance to excel while I was there.
Things I am looking forward to this summer! ROCKY MOUNT TOURNEY. I am gonna be gone july 23rd thru july 27th. There will probably be a little drinking, but I don't plan on drinking that much TBH. I don't like feeling hung over and the few times I have been drinking its always really lame afterwards. I am gonna enter both tournaments even though I will suck in both. DDR will be fun because I am putting every chart my oppenent picks on shuffle. PSMO is really fun on shuffle hahahaha. I can't wait to get out and hang out with some cool people. There will probably be a bit of drama in the works but I am not gonna bring it up in here since it doesn't involve me, only my good close friends. If you know what I am talking about don't bring it up or I will delete your shit. I am not gonna put up with people being assholes to my friends. So rocky mount will be a good needed vacation. I will also be going back to ohio the Wednesday after and staying for a week. Gonna hang out with liz and play some itg probably and perfect dark FUCKING YES!!!!!!!!! I am super excited for it. I am gonna visit my friends and family and just relax for a while. I might need some money from my parents to help pay for my car since I will be out of work for about two weeks for all of this stuff. We will see how it all goes down.
Me and Rob might be moving to the baltimore area. It is not 100% sure right now cause Rob doesn't know if he wants to move or not because his friends and family live down here. I really would like to move honestly. I would be 2 hours away from liz in philly, have access to a good ITG machine more than likely, end up going to a cheaper better school, and Rob would have a more stable form of income. I think it would be alot easier for both of us and a nice fresh start and change of scenery. I feel like Rob really needs to get out of this virginia beach area. He has lived here his whole life and I know he likes it out here but things would be much better for us elsewhere. I will have to keep you all updated about whats going on with this.
As for me, I have been doing alright. I am rather under the weather still because of my allergies. Emotionally I feel extremely drained and I am honestly not 100% why. I am very happy with everything right now but I feel off sometimes. Maybe its because I had a good long talk with my ex today, which I will talk about in a minute. I have felt really weird emotionally the past few days. Hopefully its just the dull weather and work being stupid.
I had a long talk with my ex tim today. It was a really good conversation. He is working for a juvi hall in xenia ohio now talking with inmates as a spiritual counselor of sorts. He feels good doing it and I can tell he is finally at a place in his life where he feels happy. I actually was thinking about him a few days ago and that's why I started the conversation. I never thanked him for everything. Even though we broke up and it was extremely messy and we both hated each other for a while. Maybe I reopened a wound that I thought I was finally over. I honestly don't think I am ever going to fully be over him, because that is just who I am. The whole experience changed who I am and I am very thankful for it. And I wanted to let him know. We talked for about an hour and I got to see the man I was in love with before we broke up, and that made me the happiest of all. I told him he would find a great man someday that complimented him like Rob compliments me. It was a very good conversation and I am so happy I got to talk with him today.
So life is going pretty good. Not the most exciting stuff but I am happy with how everything is turning out so far. Only time will tell how the future will go.
Love life is going good as usual. Me and Rob are doing better than ever. We spent some time today at a sports bar palying video hold 'em and I was doing pretty good for a while but then I lost my streak of luck hahaha. Oh well. It was fun to just spend some stress free time with him. I have been getting up around noon and he is usually already out working his taxi stuff by the time I wake up so I don't get to see him all that often these days. He is probably going to be gone for a few weeks in July as long as he has enough money to help with the bills. I am going to be sad to see him leave, but the time apart will be good. I have been feeling more and more lately that I need a little bit more space sometimes so that will be good to have some alone time for a while. I love the man but sometimes I just need my space lol.
Dancey dance games oh girl. Well I am basically done with ddr. There is honestly nothing left for me with ddr. I don't like that I have peaked out and at a place where I am basically screwed for competitive purposes. If I wanted to not step on tempo with the music to get good scores I would play pump hahaha. But seriously. If a song is straight forward and on sync I more than likely have it AAA'ed. If it is too easy or too streamy and off sync I will NEVER AAA it so I am over it. I know when stuff drifts and how and how I should step but I just doesn't work. What is even more fun when the arcade you play at sucks ass. I AAA'ed dynamite rave saturday with two pad greats, from white flashes to a great back to white flashes. Fucking bullshit. In eighth notes. Fuck it. The center panel on the good side moves around and feels weird since I don't step in the center of the arrows and I partially step on the center panel. The other side has shitty arrows. Oh and each arrow has two sensors. ITG is a namco cab that sucks. I like getting pad excellents on anything over 145 BPM or over a 10. I love blue comboing songs with dropped freezes and pad mines. I play on them anyway to keep up my stamina and become familiar with charts. Somedays they are good, like when I tristarred over the rave and LED G on them. And some days I fail birdie (though its a really hard song). I am pretty down on the whole thing honestly and it's extremely frustrating. I wish I had played ITG more when I was living near GOM and gotten a chance to excel while I was there.
Things I am looking forward to this summer! ROCKY MOUNT TOURNEY. I am gonna be gone july 23rd thru july 27th. There will probably be a little drinking, but I don't plan on drinking that much TBH. I don't like feeling hung over and the few times I have been drinking its always really lame afterwards. I am gonna enter both tournaments even though I will suck in both. DDR will be fun because I am putting every chart my oppenent picks on shuffle. PSMO is really fun on shuffle hahahaha. I can't wait to get out and hang out with some cool people. There will probably be a bit of drama in the works but I am not gonna bring it up in here since it doesn't involve me, only my good close friends. If you know what I am talking about don't bring it up or I will delete your shit. I am not gonna put up with people being assholes to my friends. So rocky mount will be a good needed vacation. I will also be going back to ohio the Wednesday after and staying for a week. Gonna hang out with liz and play some itg probably and perfect dark FUCKING YES!!!!!!!!! I am super excited for it. I am gonna visit my friends and family and just relax for a while. I might need some money from my parents to help pay for my car since I will be out of work for about two weeks for all of this stuff. We will see how it all goes down.
Me and Rob might be moving to the baltimore area. It is not 100% sure right now cause Rob doesn't know if he wants to move or not because his friends and family live down here. I really would like to move honestly. I would be 2 hours away from liz in philly, have access to a good ITG machine more than likely, end up going to a cheaper better school, and Rob would have a more stable form of income. I think it would be alot easier for both of us and a nice fresh start and change of scenery. I feel like Rob really needs to get out of this virginia beach area. He has lived here his whole life and I know he likes it out here but things would be much better for us elsewhere. I will have to keep you all updated about whats going on with this.
As for me, I have been doing alright. I am rather under the weather still because of my allergies. Emotionally I feel extremely drained and I am honestly not 100% why. I am very happy with everything right now but I feel off sometimes. Maybe its because I had a good long talk with my ex today, which I will talk about in a minute. I have felt really weird emotionally the past few days. Hopefully its just the dull weather and work being stupid.
I had a long talk with my ex tim today. It was a really good conversation. He is working for a juvi hall in xenia ohio now talking with inmates as a spiritual counselor of sorts. He feels good doing it and I can tell he is finally at a place in his life where he feels happy. I actually was thinking about him a few days ago and that's why I started the conversation. I never thanked him for everything. Even though we broke up and it was extremely messy and we both hated each other for a while. Maybe I reopened a wound that I thought I was finally over. I honestly don't think I am ever going to fully be over him, because that is just who I am. The whole experience changed who I am and I am very thankful for it. And I wanted to let him know. We talked for about an hour and I got to see the man I was in love with before we broke up, and that made me the happiest of all. I told him he would find a great man someday that complimented him like Rob compliments me. It was a very good conversation and I am so happy I got to talk with him today.
So life is going pretty good. Not the most exciting stuff but I am happy with how everything is turning out so far. Only time will tell how the future will go.