Life
I am kinda sick of alot of bullshit that is going on.
1. I hate this place. I hate cleveland so much. I don't think there is anywhere else I would rather less be than where I am sitting right now. Here with my parents. It is so agrivating (ps how do you spell that word, lol. I never spell it right EVER). I don't like having to get approval do go out at night, or to go on a road trip. I am almost 20, I shouldn't have to ask about every single little thing that I do. I am so sick of dealing with my parents. I am really hating it right now.
2. My job. I hate it. My manager is a giant idiot and she drives me nuts. I have this thing where I hate stupid people, and thats like all that I work with. It is very bothersome. I don't get paid enough and people around here are assholes who don't tip very well like ever. It just seems like a waste of effort for me to do this. I am wasting my talents biding my time until I can go back to school.
3. School. I haven't told my parents that I want to go to school for music yet, because I know that they are going to hound at me for it. They are gonna complain because I was going to a good school for music and blah blah blah blah blah. And yeah I made a huge fucking mistake by leaving when I did and how I did and why I did. But I have learned from that so get the fuck over it. I know what I want to do with my life, it is just a matter of getting there and getting the degrees to get me there. I know a possible school that I can go to in the fall, but that would require me moving in with my boyfriend. I don't know if I am ready for that yet or not, and I know my parents will be very upset with the idea that I would go and do that. I am just worried because I don't want to fucking wait until NEXT fucking fall to enroll somewhere. I just feel so helpless sometimes.
I am just so tired of nothing going the way I plan. Life just doesn't want to work out for me I guess.
1. I hate this place. I hate cleveland so much. I don't think there is anywhere else I would rather less be than where I am sitting right now. Here with my parents. It is so agrivating (ps how do you spell that word, lol. I never spell it right EVER). I don't like having to get approval do go out at night, or to go on a road trip. I am almost 20, I shouldn't have to ask about every single little thing that I do. I am so sick of dealing with my parents. I am really hating it right now.
2. My job. I hate it. My manager is a giant idiot and she drives me nuts. I have this thing where I hate stupid people, and thats like all that I work with. It is very bothersome. I don't get paid enough and people around here are assholes who don't tip very well like ever. It just seems like a waste of effort for me to do this. I am wasting my talents biding my time until I can go back to school.
3. School. I haven't told my parents that I want to go to school for music yet, because I know that they are going to hound at me for it. They are gonna complain because I was going to a good school for music and blah blah blah blah blah. And yeah I made a huge fucking mistake by leaving when I did and how I did and why I did. But I have learned from that so get the fuck over it. I know what I want to do with my life, it is just a matter of getting there and getting the degrees to get me there. I know a possible school that I can go to in the fall, but that would require me moving in with my boyfriend. I don't know if I am ready for that yet or not, and I know my parents will be very upset with the idea that I would go and do that. I am just worried because I don't want to fucking wait until NEXT fucking fall to enroll somewhere. I just feel so helpless sometimes.
I am just so tired of nothing going the way I plan. Life just doesn't want to work out for me I guess.