it's unfortunate
i really hate the idea of editing anything at all, but what has to be done has to be done. i had to disable a few from making comments on this journal because they can't seem to get enough of me, and i was through with them months ago. some even tried to send me emails, which i deleted because i don't care one bit. they don't seem to get that though, so i had to make the decision for them. i love how people react so fast to everything and very few things have any relation to them whatsoever. at least i know my words hit a chord, which was their intention. i felt pushed to the point of complete and utter honesty about things that i never wanted to have to say to anyone. i feel better that it's out though- like a weight being lifted. i sent nick a copy of the said-email, and what he said was unfortunately very true. "you didn't even have to make any of that stuff up, you know. that's stuff that you've felt all this time, and while it was harsh, it was completely honest." <---this was not a direct quote. i paraphrased for the benefit of some of my lower-IQ readers, but i felt that it was important, nonetheless, the show that some people do understand the difference between paraphrases and deleting and adding words and whole sentences to make themselves look better. at least the end of the world is nearer than it was yesterday.
the fortunate thing is that there is nothing that can ruin my good mood, which is an odd feeling for me. right now the fight has been taken out of me. i don't feel the need to be angry and i don't feel angry. i just feel easy-going. the past few days have been incredible. we all went to the chances then to katz's and then i went to allie and becky's house and it was such a nice time. allie's a great person, and i feel like we are on the same page. nothing is moving too fast and everything seems to be in its right place. my question is where the hell are the cds??? maybe sarah flushed them down the toilet? i need answers!!! i'm sure they will turn up, and i'm going to hang out with nick tomorrow night which i can't wait to do. anyway- i have a movie to watch. catch ya kids, on the flip side.
the fortunate thing is that there is nothing that can ruin my good mood, which is an odd feeling for me. right now the fight has been taken out of me. i don't feel the need to be angry and i don't feel angry. i just feel easy-going. the past few days have been incredible. we all went to the chances then to katz's and then i went to allie and becky's house and it was such a nice time. allie's a great person, and i feel like we are on the same page. nothing is moving too fast and everything seems to be in its right place. my question is where the hell are the cds??? maybe sarah flushed them down the toilet? i need answers!!! i'm sure they will turn up, and i'm going to hang out with nick tomorrow night which i can't wait to do. anyway- i have a movie to watch. catch ya kids, on the flip side.