Turning 50
I wonder when am I ever going to feel my real age. In my mind I'm still somewhere in my early thirties or maybe younger. I don't feel that insecure but I certainly don't feel 50. Or what 50 is supposed to feel like. I've been told that 50 is today's 40 or 30. I wonder if it's just that life has gotten so easy that you don't beat your body up with grueling work or backbreaking tasks or illness is cured so readlily that you just don't have the maladies of the past. Or is it that you don't allow yourself to fully grow up so you don't grow older. Your body may sag or ache but the brain is still slightly immature. It really is a double edged sword feeling younger than your age. You feel there's an infinite amount of time to do things but there's not, and you need to get a move on.
I had a great 50th birthday. Although my birthday will always be shared with Christmas it still was the first time it felt truly like my birthday celebration. It was dinner at a latin restaurant with a club in the back.
Dani was sick with a cold as was my mom and I was coming down with one too.
My niece was getting bored with the adults dancing but I still had a good time. I realized that in the past I would've just given in to my daughter's cold or niece's boredom and called it a night but I was going to be selfish this night and enjoy the time with my loved ones. I did shorten the evening a little but it didn't ruin the night.
I danced with my dad which I haven't done in ages and who knows if I will get a chance to again. I danced with my husband which is always a treat.
Then my sisters and best friend all took a turn on the dance floor. My sister Kathy and I sang back up for the quartet and it'a lucky Kathy is so crazy after a couple of drinks or I never would've done that.
We ended with the band singing Happy Birthday along with my family and had a delish White chocolate caramel latte cheesecake with candles (although not 50, thank goodness)as my cake.
I will post photos soon.
I had a great 50th birthday. Although my birthday will always be shared with Christmas it still was the first time it felt truly like my birthday celebration. It was dinner at a latin restaurant with a club in the back.
Dani was sick with a cold as was my mom and I was coming down with one too.
My niece was getting bored with the adults dancing but I still had a good time. I realized that in the past I would've just given in to my daughter's cold or niece's boredom and called it a night but I was going to be selfish this night and enjoy the time with my loved ones. I did shorten the evening a little but it didn't ruin the night.
I danced with my dad which I haven't done in ages and who knows if I will get a chance to again. I danced with my husband which is always a treat.
Then my sisters and best friend all took a turn on the dance floor. My sister Kathy and I sang back up for the quartet and it'a lucky Kathy is so crazy after a couple of drinks or I never would've done that.
We ended with the band singing Happy Birthday along with my family and had a delish White chocolate caramel latte cheesecake with candles (although not 50, thank goodness)as my cake.
I will post photos soon.