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Formal has totally snuck up on me. I want to ask Caylon, but I don't know if she's goin' with anyone or not, so I'll get back to that.I'm thinkin' of askin' Kelly if all fails, but her boyfriend would probably pull some shit to get me and him at it again. I can't hold my temper back with him anymore, so if we do go at it, someone's gonna end up in the hospital, and it isn't gonna be me. I haven't written something decent since the time me and my mom got into it, and I was really depressed.
It felt so good to write again. If I don't write something for awhile, I start getting depressed and angry, and it's hard to control my temper. Even if I write something crappy, I'll at least have some stuff settled, so I try to write every day now.
I think I'll post something from that night with my mom....
"Tonight"
If I cut myself,
Will I bleed,
If I shoot myself,
Will I scream,
If I kill myself,
Will you cry,
If I hurt myself,
Will I die,
They say the happier,
I am in life,
The sadder I'll be inside,
I crawl in a space,
Inside my head,
To lay in place,
AS if I'm dead,
(bridge)No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
Take the gun from my hand,
And try to help me if you can,
All is well so don't take forever,
OR just stop cause I can do better,
I'll kill myself tonight,
No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
I rode in on higher,
Grounds to set fire,
To this town,
And this world,
I'll Leave alone,
In my mind,
To die alone,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight,
No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
I don't wanna pay for this,
In hell so I will kiss,
The barrel of a rifle with my mouth,
To see the bullet fall back out,
I'll kill myself somehow,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight.
It felt so good to write again. If I don't write something for awhile, I start getting depressed and angry, and it's hard to control my temper. Even if I write something crappy, I'll at least have some stuff settled, so I try to write every day now.
I think I'll post something from that night with my mom....
"Tonight"
If I cut myself,
Will I bleed,
If I shoot myself,
Will I scream,
If I kill myself,
Will you cry,
If I hurt myself,
Will I die,
They say the happier,
I am in life,
The sadder I'll be inside,
I crawl in a space,
Inside my head,
To lay in place,
AS if I'm dead,
(bridge)No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
Take the gun from my hand,
And try to help me if you can,
All is well so don't take forever,
OR just stop cause I can do better,
I'll kill myself tonight,
No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
I rode in on higher,
Grounds to set fire,
To this town,
And this world,
I'll Leave alone,
In my mind,
To die alone,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight,
No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
No remorce is what will show,
Through the shades of what I know,
Bring in the knife from the summer air,
To let this pain wash what I shared,
Your heart will die,
When my blood falls,
And I will end it all,
I don't wanna pay for this,
In hell so I will kiss,
The barrel of a rifle with my mouth,
To see the bullet fall back out,
I'll kill myself somehow,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight.