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It kills when you think of things. Someone just talking to you on the phone and you're totally idle. Like you're not listening to them, you're not even there. The only thing really keeping you on the phone is who it is, or perchance they may say something important to you. People's flaws suck. When you're in that moment you just stare blankly at glass, a wall, something seperating you from the rest of the world. You hear things from beyond that barrier but seem out of reach of them. You know this thing, whatever's wrong, will lead up to something terrible, I don't feel that I ever was much of a good person. But I can't stand some things, maybe I have no right to be so intolerant in certain departments, maybe I do, but maybe its not a matter of if I have the right. I wish they would listen well enough to understand that I care enough for such things to happen and ask them, check on them, and make sure. But I never get the favor returned. Well people ask me what's wrong it pisses me the FUCK off. Its no one else's concern, its all just me. I'm lying to myself? But again, I've been lied to as well...