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[bibichan_chan]

She cannot live like this! How can her parents even allow that?! Well, yes, she's off age. >.> Their son has been living in that house for years, then why is it in this state? It's a bloody ruin! The roof leaks. The heating doesn't work and it's COLD. And wet. There's mould. Her shower doesn't work properly. All it does is trickle and there's only

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[grumpychild]

I'm highly self-destructive in my loyalty. I'm aware of that. Friends and family have told me countless time that I'm a better friend to her than she is to me and that I should let go.

Oh, no. Actually I hate it when I really want to do something like that cos it makes me so mad and everyone is like "don't do that, it's not worth it, tell the person off, let it go". how can that be done???? !!! T_T (I do get additional things, though, like "Don't bother about her, you must do your own work first. You're more important. When you're in trouble, your friends won't be there. What if you don't do well yourself?/What if you end up like her? Nobody's going to care for you" etc which just doesn't make sense! when things like that are going on! D: D: D: *huggles*)

*hugs* good luck! I really really support you in this and I hope somehow you get round to her and all. Oh, no...there is a chinese phrase for this, 自暴自弃 (I forget often who on my f-list knows chinese and who not) which i had never understood when i first learnt it, which means literally letting onself explode and giving up on oneself and not doing anything. I hope her 自暴自弃 attitude changes...and that things do turn for the better.

I think you are good. I don't know about "highly self-destructive in loyalty", that kind of thing only comes with saying "I was the one who transported the drugs" and accepting the penalty in place of the person. I think you are good-hearted. how long has this been going on? for some reason i do think your being counts anyway.

It is understandable if in the end you get kind of exasperated and hop off anyway. Will support your decision--do what you think is right :) Do take care, and i hope everything gets better. *hugs*

Ah, ah, I adore Kira, I think he's truly amazing, and there's a strength in him that the musicals overlook; and Hinamori turning back when everyone else was fleeing--that was wonderful *hearts*

[grumpychild]

uh, i mean, it makes me so mad when i want to do something like that and everyone says things like "don't don't" for various reasons D:

[bibichan_chan]

It annoys me greatly when people tell me that I should let go and stop caring. Yes, she has let me down and disappointed me more than once, but she’s still my friend. I like her and I can’t just “terminate” my feelings. That’s impossible. It’s easy for others to say “Don’t bother” because they don’t feel friendship towards her, but I do. How heartless and cold would I have to be to simply cut my ties and leave her to cope with her screwed up life alone? Who else does she have to turn to right now? Her parents? They’re making it worse.
Also, there’s that tiny little bit of hope that she’d do the same thing for me. In fact, she showed definite seigns of caring when I got sick at the beginning of the year. She’d call almost every two days asking about what the doctors said and stuff.

That saying sounds really fitting. She’s really not doing anything to improve her chances, but just accepts it and pretends everything is funny even though it really isn’t, at least from my point of view.
I’m glad you understand. It really makes me feel better knowing there’s someone who thinks the same way. *gives you big, hearty hug*
(My best friend is learning Chinese at school, but my school doesn’t offer any cool subjects for seniors. I only know/speak German, English and French, and I can also read Dutch texts and get the general gist of it. I can introduce myself in Japanese! xD That’s about all I remember from the short time I took lessons, plus some words here and there.)

I meant loyalty in the sense that I’m so, well, loyal to my friends that I don’t let anyone say anything bad about them. I’d do pretty much everything for them and I’m bad at saying no when being asked for a favour. That’s where the self-destruction comes in. Often, when my friends ask “I need this and that...Want to go to town with me?” or “Can you help me with my homework?” I say yes even if I don’t feel well or have a lot to do myself. Sometimes I forcefully remind myself to put myself first though.
With “how long has this been going on” do you mean her life going downhill or people telling me to care less? Well, we’ve known each other and been friends since the first year of secondary school when we were ten, now we’re eighteen, and all along I’ve been told that “she doesn’t deserve a friend like you [me]”. Rubbish. How can you say someone doesn’t deserve a friend? That’s really cruel. The drastic change came last year around September/October, when she quit school and basically fled to her grandmother’s holiday flat in France...

Unless I drastically change my mind, I will continue to support her. With her parents being more of a problem than help and her ex-boyfriend having developped stalker-like tendencies (thank to whatever authority you believe in, he lives six train hours from here), she needs someone who doesn’t give her crap all the time.

You’re so right. Kira and Hinamori are my favourites in Bleach. They may not be the most awesome in battle, but they have a great inner strength. <3