my life is just.... my life
hello. yes, it is time for me to write again. i'm not normally writing in here often but i am going to try to have more logs in this journal for those of you who would like to keep more updated on my life here at the beach. i have been enjoying my semester off, but at the same time i miss school. i go back in january and i am actually excited about it. i don't miss the social life at school, i just miss waking up early in the morning, having a cappacino and enjoying the time i spend on campus. never thought i'd say that, but i did. i have been talking to some friends from back 'home' more often than before. back where i graduated and where my life started. i miss some people and others i just wish i could see just for the sake of them realizing how successful i have become. not successful with money or a flashy career. just the aspects of them seeing that they were wrong when they said i would never be anything. all i am is a college student right now, but i am one with her own car, apt and clothes. i earned everything i have right now and i can rightfully say it's mine. i see so many people who never worked for what they have and i can say that i did. people will (or already have) realize that i have savored the fact that i grew up hard. i have to say that i struggled, or my family rather, for what i had. i always had a shelter over my head and food (not a lot of it) on my plate. i thank those who gave me what i did have in the past. i don't brag that i walk around with a louis vuitton bag, or rock out my baby phat clothes, i just flaunt it because i knew in the past i was wearing clothes that cost me a dollar or two from the hand me down store. i grew up learning that what i did have, although not much, meant a lot to me and when i get things now, i know i spent a paycheck or two on them, or worked my ass off as a waitress to get it. i take pride in my belongings, as i always have. not a lot of people can say (even though i was young and can't remember) that they lived in a car day to day and their parents had to fight for what they had. but i can look at them and say thank you and realize that everything they did helped me become what i am now.
i have this friend, who just moved down to the beach from ny who i can relate to in a few ways. not with the way we grew up, but the way we are now. we are original and don't act fake as some people around us do. we see the problem with something when it is there rather than accept it for what it already is. we want change and hate when things are repetitious. anyways, i am going to ny with her next week and see what her life back 'home' was like. i'm over excited, and i really hope my luck does not fail, because it happens often, and i can have a good time while i am up there.
i have to tell everyone now about my pink fetish. it is odd how barely a year ago i loved going out in my 'bling bling' sweat pants and my eddie bauer tee. now i have to confess something. a month or two ago i bought a pink outfit from one of my fav stores charolette russe. after that, my wardrobe turned a disgusting shade of PINK!! not disgusting as in ugly, but it's overwhelming how much there is. shirts, pants, earrings, purses... everything. this color is taking over. nobody ever saw me as a 'pink' girl. i used to be all thug, and now i'm all.. 'prissy' eck!! i still act the same, i just have a new mood in the color i wear.
so anyways, went to a 'phillips' party last night *i work at 'phillips' seafood* and had a good time. although i woke up with a splitting headache, i don't regret the fun i had. i spent my day off in the house feeling... gross. we have these little get togethers often, although sometimes when i get there, i feel like i'm just tired of being around these people. i've known most of them for about a year and a half now and it just is overwhelming the amount of time we spend together. change, once again. i need it sometimes, especially when it comes to house parties. they may be at different places, but always with the same people and occassionally a fresh face or two.
yah, i could go on, but that is my update for today, i hope to keep posting and letting you in to this head of mine.
~love yah
heidi
i have this friend, who just moved down to the beach from ny who i can relate to in a few ways. not with the way we grew up, but the way we are now. we are original and don't act fake as some people around us do. we see the problem with something when it is there rather than accept it for what it already is. we want change and hate when things are repetitious. anyways, i am going to ny with her next week and see what her life back 'home' was like. i'm over excited, and i really hope my luck does not fail, because it happens often, and i can have a good time while i am up there.
i have to tell everyone now about my pink fetish. it is odd how barely a year ago i loved going out in my 'bling bling' sweat pants and my eddie bauer tee. now i have to confess something. a month or two ago i bought a pink outfit from one of my fav stores charolette russe. after that, my wardrobe turned a disgusting shade of PINK!! not disgusting as in ugly, but it's overwhelming how much there is. shirts, pants, earrings, purses... everything. this color is taking over. nobody ever saw me as a 'pink' girl. i used to be all thug, and now i'm all.. 'prissy' eck!! i still act the same, i just have a new mood in the color i wear.
so anyways, went to a 'phillips' party last night *i work at 'phillips' seafood* and had a good time. although i woke up with a splitting headache, i don't regret the fun i had. i spent my day off in the house feeling... gross. we have these little get togethers often, although sometimes when i get there, i feel like i'm just tired of being around these people. i've known most of them for about a year and a half now and it just is overwhelming the amount of time we spend together. change, once again. i need it sometimes, especially when it comes to house parties. they may be at different places, but always with the same people and occassionally a fresh face or two.
yah, i could go on, but that is my update for today, i hope to keep posting and letting you in to this head of mine.
~love yah
heidi