Emotionally, Phsycally and Mentally Drained
I'm slowly beginning to get my schoolwork done now. Although Everysice i've found out about my illness i've felt a whole new weight on my shoulders. Aparently It takes 3 months to get over. And what makes it worse is the effect all the break ins and shit have screwed up my emotions.
I couldn't seem to lift my body off my bed this morning. Dad had to literally drag me off my bed and over to school. I was extremely late. But i don't know how long i can take this. It's so Draining. both physical and Emotional. Also mental when you add the schoolwork. I can't seem to concentrate at all and i find myself unable to sleep at night.
When mum picked me up from school this afternoon, We had to take my brother to pick up his car and we got caught in traffic. it was a ratehr long way away too. On the way back i slept. And when i had tog et out of the car, i almost passed out. I had a sudden dizzyness come over me and my legs grew weak, i stumbled and managed to walk myself up the stairs and into my room. I'm so exausted that i'm on the verge of bursting into tears.
I'm sick of this. And everyone calling me a hypercondriact, Whiny, lazy. Even the docter was surprised when He found out that still while being ill, i managed to play and train basketball 4 days a week along with going to school, doing stuff with church and keeping up wth a fitness program of jumping, running, situps, pushups and others as such. And at one stage i was attending church meetings at 6:30am every morning along with it.
Not to mention my sleeping issues.
I see everyone is busy. I think i might crawl off to bed. have a nap before basketball training. I feel i don't have the strength to go. But i have to. I have no choice. -sighs.-
I wouldn't mind drifting into a coma. sleep for a few months. That would be nice....
<3 Jezzey
I couldn't seem to lift my body off my bed this morning. Dad had to literally drag me off my bed and over to school. I was extremely late. But i don't know how long i can take this. It's so Draining. both physical and Emotional. Also mental when you add the schoolwork. I can't seem to concentrate at all and i find myself unable to sleep at night.
When mum picked me up from school this afternoon, We had to take my brother to pick up his car and we got caught in traffic. it was a ratehr long way away too. On the way back i slept. And when i had tog et out of the car, i almost passed out. I had a sudden dizzyness come over me and my legs grew weak, i stumbled and managed to walk myself up the stairs and into my room. I'm so exausted that i'm on the verge of bursting into tears.
I'm sick of this. And everyone calling me a hypercondriact, Whiny, lazy. Even the docter was surprised when He found out that still while being ill, i managed to play and train basketball 4 days a week along with going to school, doing stuff with church and keeping up wth a fitness program of jumping, running, situps, pushups and others as such. And at one stage i was attending church meetings at 6:30am every morning along with it.
Not to mention my sleeping issues.
I see everyone is busy. I think i might crawl off to bed. have a nap before basketball training. I feel i don't have the strength to go. But i have to. I have no choice. -sighs.-
I wouldn't mind drifting into a coma. sleep for a few months. That would be nice....
<3 Jezzey