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What's her deal? I throw so many hints that I'm dying and she can't catch a single one? Maybe shes catching them all and throwing them away. I don't know. Either way she pretends like shes fine and everything is just peachy. Hell maybe she is just fine and everything peachy and I'm the only one who cries themselves to sleep. Could be that she wakes up and thinks "What am I going to do today?" and isn't pitiful like me and thinks first thing in the morning "My love isn't here. And today I wont get to hold her in my arms. i wont get to smell her hair and feel it on my face when we're close. I wont get to spend today sharing any happiness with her, especially since I wont be happy. I get to spend all day alone at work wishing that I had a loving caring person to go home and lay in their arms." I'm not going to blame myself for this time though. I always blame myself and say "What did I do or not do?" I did everything I could to keep up going great. I'm starting to think that I'm just not meant to be happy. I'm sorry if that disappoints any of you but I believe that I'm not meant to get what I want. Sadly enough thats reality. Some people DO get fucked over by life. Some good people just get shit on and tossed aside and they did nothing wrong. Those people end up homeless and get to spend the rest of their lives alone living wherever they can keep warm. I have it better than them but I'm on the same boat. I'm losing the one I care about the most. If anyone reads this, please try. Try and make me happy. If you know me at all you know that only thing that will truly make me happy is Destiny. Just...talk to her. Tell her how much I care. Let her know that she has done me wrong and even though ive done wrong things before too, neither makes the other right. I think with the support of her friends she might change her life. If you know Destiny you know she loves me. There is no question about that. And if you look closely you'll see that even though YOU guys don't want her to be with me...she loves me...and won't be truly happy with anyone else. So you can either try your hardest to make her happy with the person she loves...or you can be the ones to try and change who she is and tell her she wasted 20% of her life with me and that she would be much better off and happier with someone else. Because it really hurts to have your friends tell you things like "you can do better" or "they're horrible" or anything like that about the person you love...thats all...