guilty conscience of a catholic...
...or worse. A Jewish person. I feel bad about EVERYTHING. You can pretty much make me feel an inch tall for anything if you really wanted.
I missed church today. July and August it starts at 10am instead of 11am. I have to walk down to church, which takes about 25 minutes. I love my church, I really really do. I haven't been in three weeks and that makes me feel awful. One week I was sick, the next week I was home, and this week I slept. I didn't mean to! I set my alarm and nothing! I just slept right through it! That's awful!
Anyways, what's worse is that I went out last night with some friends. I only had a couple of drinks, cause I'm not a big drinker anyhow. But I always tell myself that if I go out on a Saturday night, then more than anything I should be in church the next morning.
But I wasn't this time. And I feel awful.
I think another part of it is that I feel as though the people at church will judge me or think poorly of me if I'm not there. I hate that. I hate the pressure I feel to go for other people. GAH! I'm being eaten up inside! I can't take my own guilty conscience!
I missed church today. July and August it starts at 10am instead of 11am. I have to walk down to church, which takes about 25 minutes. I love my church, I really really do. I haven't been in three weeks and that makes me feel awful. One week I was sick, the next week I was home, and this week I slept. I didn't mean to! I set my alarm and nothing! I just slept right through it! That's awful!
Anyways, what's worse is that I went out last night with some friends. I only had a couple of drinks, cause I'm not a big drinker anyhow. But I always tell myself that if I go out on a Saturday night, then more than anything I should be in church the next morning.
But I wasn't this time. And I feel awful.
I think another part of it is that I feel as though the people at church will judge me or think poorly of me if I'm not there. I hate that. I hate the pressure I feel to go for other people. GAH! I'm being eaten up inside! I can't take my own guilty conscience!