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today started out being a total shit hole. but then again what days dont. im so happy i have linda by my side to get me through everything. i dont know what i would do without her. just something about knowing someone ACTUALLY cares about me. i mean ME of all people, just brings a whole new music to my day. i honestly hate my fucken family, and it seems like ALL of my friends have stabbed me in the back. i cant fucken stand life and i cant stand the sight of myself. i feel like my life is a complete waste. the only fuckn reason why i get up in the morning is to see her face and to jsut hold her and feel that feeling that i have never felt before its undescribable and makes me want to float away. i have said it before and i will say it a million times, im completely in love. shes like my fucken role model, my angel, my lover, and my life. its so amazing to feel this way about one person and to know that my feelings will last a lifetime wheteher or not she lvoes me in ten years. i cant believe i have fallen so hard and fallen so fast. i just cant wait till i get out of this house and away from everything and everyone that has let me down. i held all of you fucks so highly in my life, and you shit on me, well fuck you. i cant stand any of these fake people trying to embark in my life, i would like real sane, TRUTHFUL people. not a bunch of ignorant fucks who just wanna be cool. the only reason i dont go insane and jump of the empire stat ep building is because of linda shes my world.shes got me all rapped up in her and i cant cut loose.shes just so incredible, even if she doesnt feeel the same even if i am being creepy, atleast i know what i feel on the inside and i know im in love. and i know alisha and aimee cant fucken compare, i have no bad thoughts not set backs, everything is moving forward and i am going to marry this fucken girl. and nothing will stop me, grrr i miss her already haha well anyway. im gonna go to hairschool
ill love you forever
ill love you forever