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[biandu]

i read through these years on here
and saw the waves of pain
and the smiles so loud
and the sex of me spread out
like fireflies over a summer field
i gathered them, those moments
onto my tongue, slid it back
into my mouth closed my jaw
and with toothed-fortress i kept
them in; heard them scream
felt their fists pound
onto enamel, tasted their anxious
waste. and i waited

waited for them to relent-
then i swallowed.