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I should be working right now but I'm not because I am so fucking pissed off.
Frdiay night Anali and her new bang Ben and her old bang Andrew came over. The first thing that pissed me off was that she brought both of them and then she tells me that neither of them know about the other, I am now an assesary to her lies, which is not cool. It has been pissing me off that she couldn;t keep it in her pants until Andrew was gone since she first told me about ben but untill that moment I had nothing to do with it therefor I kept my mouth shut. So I had to watch her be a jerk all night trying to keep both of them unaware of each other although not doing a good job of it at all. Poor andrew. He's sad because she is so mean, and she jsut keeps getting meaner. Then she puts in a cd and they tell me that it's made by racist nazi losers. Then I realize that Ben has a swastika patch on his back (it said sid lives but I mean still an icky swatsika) he is also wearing black army boots with red laces (NAZI GET UP OMIGOD) but I'm jsuyt like wahateves and I am still nice. Actual Ben was interesting he was good at talking kept thinking we weren't listening, but we were and kept tstanding up for Andrew every time Anali shot him down, which was a lot as always.
Patrick asked Andrew how work was and Anali decided he was talking to her and answered. Ben would ask him his opinion and Anali would but in saying he had none. It was annoying and it was lame. Anali also can't argue but man did she try, it was sad. She kept sayings he wasn't samrt enough to argue and I realized she was right. She is condesending but she is not smart. She lieks to act like she is smarter then me but she really isn't.
So yesterday after my hostpital trip (I iwll explain later) I am told by Amy that people were telling her I was hanging out with Nazi. Now I have a Nazi rep. Not cool. Also not cool is the fact that I was not warned nor did Anali seem to care at all that I am not fond of Nazi racist white surpemists asshholes and that Ptarick is Jewish. She just brought him to my house. Also someone ate a shit load of my candy (like over half of it) and wasted a bag of cookies I had. Which just sucked but whatever. I tried to talk to her about it and it was all "Ben's not a nazi" (rolls eyes) "I don't have to justify my actions" and "I can't talk to you about this right now" I am so sick of this horse shit she is pulling.
Lately every time I have been around her she has had her bitch on at me or at Andrew, She has broken him down and she doesn't care she seems to like it. She dragged him to Ontario and now she is forcing him to go away because she wants to be free to bang bang bang. It makes me sad. She has also been awfuly high and mighty about her and Chelle hanging out like I should care. It's liek she thinks she has beaten me at something. I haven't ever told her the things Chelle used to say about her but soemtimes I think I hsould. I should tell her all the things people say about her I should tell her how I have defended her forver and now I am beginning to think everyone is right about her.
If she can;t respect me, if she can't treat me nicely if she can't handle me taking attention away from her then I don't think this friendship is ever going to be good. I am tired of her trying to tear me down in front of people to make herself look better. If she ever does it at Group again (whihc is where it always happens) I think I shall scream. I am so very tired of her being a selfish, disrespectful self centred bitch. Man I wish she would jsut be cool Anali all the time instead of turing into loser anali more and more often. I thought Edmonton had made her better but her true colours keep coming back.
She even tried to brag about Matzig loving her more then me Should I care? I guess she thinks I should.
Man I wish for once she could just be a friend and stop trying to beat me at the game she thinks we are playing. I feel like she thinks I am better then her, I feel like she thinks that she needs to beat me, but she doesn't it's not a war we are friends, we are supposed to be at least. I am not better then her I am not trying to take attention away from her I am not competing with her I am jsut trying to be me the best I can that's it. I wihs she could just do that too. She is cool when she is being herself.
The Hospital
I'll start with after Patrick went to bed I got scared and he didn't answer his door or the phone. I was having a bad feeeling in my chest I thought all kinds of horrible things. I thought he was dead, or cheating on me, or smoking, or in the woods being killed or mugged I thought it all. Then he comes to my room and I felt better. I went to bed at nearly 5 then at around 8:30 I wake up in the most horrible pain ever. I tried to move around to make it feel better but nothing worked so I called Patrick terrified and crying. He comes over and thinks it's my appendix so we go to the er across the street. I was at the Hospital for like 4 hours. They think I have a cyst on ovary and they gave me meds to make it go away. It stil hurts but not as bad, not even close. I have to go to my family doctor when I can and get it actualy closely looked at. It really sucks. My insides hurt ;(
so that's my hospital adventure it was interesting. I think now that I am with Patrick I will be going to the hospital a lot, he is one of those worrier people.
oh and I love GRIME. Dizzee Rascal and Wiley and Mia rock me so hard my god!
Frdiay night Anali and her new bang Ben and her old bang Andrew came over. The first thing that pissed me off was that she brought both of them and then she tells me that neither of them know about the other, I am now an assesary to her lies, which is not cool. It has been pissing me off that she couldn;t keep it in her pants until Andrew was gone since she first told me about ben but untill that moment I had nothing to do with it therefor I kept my mouth shut. So I had to watch her be a jerk all night trying to keep both of them unaware of each other although not doing a good job of it at all. Poor andrew. He's sad because she is so mean, and she jsut keeps getting meaner. Then she puts in a cd and they tell me that it's made by racist nazi losers. Then I realize that Ben has a swastika patch on his back (it said sid lives but I mean still an icky swatsika) he is also wearing black army boots with red laces (NAZI GET UP OMIGOD) but I'm jsuyt like wahateves and I am still nice. Actual Ben was interesting he was good at talking kept thinking we weren't listening, but we were and kept tstanding up for Andrew every time Anali shot him down, which was a lot as always.
Patrick asked Andrew how work was and Anali decided he was talking to her and answered. Ben would ask him his opinion and Anali would but in saying he had none. It was annoying and it was lame. Anali also can't argue but man did she try, it was sad. She kept sayings he wasn't samrt enough to argue and I realized she was right. She is condesending but she is not smart. She lieks to act like she is smarter then me but she really isn't.
So yesterday after my hostpital trip (I iwll explain later) I am told by Amy that people were telling her I was hanging out with Nazi. Now I have a Nazi rep. Not cool. Also not cool is the fact that I was not warned nor did Anali seem to care at all that I am not fond of Nazi racist white surpemists asshholes and that Ptarick is Jewish. She just brought him to my house. Also someone ate a shit load of my candy (like over half of it) and wasted a bag of cookies I had. Which just sucked but whatever. I tried to talk to her about it and it was all "Ben's not a nazi" (rolls eyes) "I don't have to justify my actions" and "I can't talk to you about this right now" I am so sick of this horse shit she is pulling.
Lately every time I have been around her she has had her bitch on at me or at Andrew, She has broken him down and she doesn't care she seems to like it. She dragged him to Ontario and now she is forcing him to go away because she wants to be free to bang bang bang. It makes me sad. She has also been awfuly high and mighty about her and Chelle hanging out like I should care. It's liek she thinks she has beaten me at something. I haven't ever told her the things Chelle used to say about her but soemtimes I think I hsould. I should tell her all the things people say about her I should tell her how I have defended her forver and now I am beginning to think everyone is right about her.
If she can;t respect me, if she can't treat me nicely if she can't handle me taking attention away from her then I don't think this friendship is ever going to be good. I am tired of her trying to tear me down in front of people to make herself look better. If she ever does it at Group again (whihc is where it always happens) I think I shall scream. I am so very tired of her being a selfish, disrespectful self centred bitch. Man I wish she would jsut be cool Anali all the time instead of turing into loser anali more and more often. I thought Edmonton had made her better but her true colours keep coming back.
She even tried to brag about Matzig loving her more then me Should I care? I guess she thinks I should.
Man I wish for once she could just be a friend and stop trying to beat me at the game she thinks we are playing. I feel like she thinks I am better then her, I feel like she thinks that she needs to beat me, but she doesn't it's not a war we are friends, we are supposed to be at least. I am not better then her I am not trying to take attention away from her I am not competing with her I am jsut trying to be me the best I can that's it. I wihs she could just do that too. She is cool when she is being herself.
The Hospital
I'll start with after Patrick went to bed I got scared and he didn't answer his door or the phone. I was having a bad feeeling in my chest I thought all kinds of horrible things. I thought he was dead, or cheating on me, or smoking, or in the woods being killed or mugged I thought it all. Then he comes to my room and I felt better. I went to bed at nearly 5 then at around 8:30 I wake up in the most horrible pain ever. I tried to move around to make it feel better but nothing worked so I called Patrick terrified and crying. He comes over and thinks it's my appendix so we go to the er across the street. I was at the Hospital for like 4 hours. They think I have a cyst on ovary and they gave me meds to make it go away. It stil hurts but not as bad, not even close. I have to go to my family doctor when I can and get it actualy closely looked at. It really sucks. My insides hurt ;(
so that's my hospital adventure it was interesting. I think now that I am with Patrick I will be going to the hospital a lot, he is one of those worrier people.
oh and I love GRIME. Dizzee Rascal and Wiley and Mia rock me so hard my god!