whyyy

[biabia6]

man. today sucked. all day i just wanted to cry. i dont really know why..i mean i do but i didnt think it'd be this bad! i honestly didnt think it meant that much to me. theres no one here right now and im having an urge to just pop some coricidin bc it made me feel so good. even tho i said i was done with that and i promised jill i wouldnt....i feel like i should. i just want to be able to not feel anything. i just hated having to see him and us not being able to be how we usually are. we were looking at each other after school today and it just broke my heart....he just gave me a sad face kinda and didnt say one word. it seemed like he wnated to but just couldnt.

i wish it wasnt like this. i really dont know why i care so much.

maybe he'll come over and we can talk.....this cant be the end?