its official...
today is the first day of Lent. for the next 50 days i will be fasting and sacrificing. i know i should be giving up so much more than i am...
today was probably the most shadiest day everr. soo many people came up to me and asked if i was okay and others thought i was on the verge of breaking down. and i just didnt know what to say... so much is going on. i have so much on my mind- regrets, school, family, and friends. i really need to go to confession. i just feel like...everything is just a blurr.
im sorry...im really sorry. i'm sure all of you have no idea what i'm talking about. but i need to say what i feel. im soo sorry for everything. i'm such a bad friend/person/daughter/student and the list goes on. its just so much is going on and i know that isn't a good reason. if i could take it back- i would in a second.
i feel like what i went through about two months ago is coming back. and i dont want it to. thats why i'm glad Lent is here. this is the time where i stop the gossiping and everything bad. it starts fresh today.
ive just been so angry and upset lately. and the worst part is i take it out on my friends/family. i snap and say things i would NEVER say. im soo sorry.
today i was thinking about my cousin who passed away about a month ago- and today it really hit me and i felt so angry at God for taking her away from me. but vanessa told me everything happens for a reason and thats what i believe in, even though it is so hard to accept. no one really knows what the pain of losing someone really feels like until it happens to someone close to them. i believe everything does happen for a reason-that is how things were meant to be.
okay sorry for this pointless entry.
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: ill be there for u
bSb GiRl 628: thanks man
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: no
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: but im not kidding
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: like id LOVE to be ur best friend or really close friwend but we never
all i have to say..is that i love nicole :) and im sorry for being such a bitch to you sometimes, you dont deserve any of it. and thanks for always listening to me complain about my life. you have no idea how much it means :) love ya dude
ps. - winter break..snowboarding??
today was probably the most shadiest day everr. soo many people came up to me and asked if i was okay and others thought i was on the verge of breaking down. and i just didnt know what to say... so much is going on. i have so much on my mind- regrets, school, family, and friends. i really need to go to confession. i just feel like...everything is just a blurr.
im sorry...im really sorry. i'm sure all of you have no idea what i'm talking about. but i need to say what i feel. im soo sorry for everything. i'm such a bad friend/person/daughter/student and the list goes on. its just so much is going on and i know that isn't a good reason. if i could take it back- i would in a second.
i feel like what i went through about two months ago is coming back. and i dont want it to. thats why i'm glad Lent is here. this is the time where i stop the gossiping and everything bad. it starts fresh today.
ive just been so angry and upset lately. and the worst part is i take it out on my friends/family. i snap and say things i would NEVER say. im soo sorry.
today i was thinking about my cousin who passed away about a month ago- and today it really hit me and i felt so angry at God for taking her away from me. but vanessa told me everything happens for a reason and thats what i believe in, even though it is so hard to accept. no one really knows what the pain of losing someone really feels like until it happens to someone close to them. i believe everything does happen for a reason-that is how things were meant to be.
okay sorry for this pointless entry.
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: ill be there for u
bSb GiRl 628: thanks man
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: no
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: but im not kidding
LoVeAbLeNiKkI234: like id LOVE to be ur best friend or really close friwend but we never
all i have to say..is that i love nicole :) and im sorry for being such a bitch to you sometimes, you dont deserve any of it. and thanks for always listening to me complain about my life. you have no idea how much it means :) love ya dude
ps. - winter break..snowboarding??