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fuck. how do you love someone that breaks your heart? how do you sit with them and let everything be okay even though it really isn't? how do you hold them when they cry even though they've made you cry so many times? how do you get them to stop affecteing you when they are everything you think about? thats the main question...because i've let everything be okay and i've held her when she cries but i cant get her out of my fucking mind. i hate myself and my overattached mind and my stupid fucking psychosis. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I just want to sleep because i hope that it will bring me to a place where she isn't...where she cant infest my mind anymore...but she ends up in my fucking dreams. I hate her for hurting me but i'll forgive her anyway because i can't stop loving people no matter how much they fucking hurt me. i'm freaking insane and i know it. i miss you every second you're not here.....