update!... and musings
Remember when I said last that I hadn't told my mom yet that I was bi? Well... I did and she's okay, she just still thinks that as a teenager, my sexuality is really wishy-washy. Also, she thinks that will be unfair to whatever sex I'm dating b/c they don't know who the hell I could cheat on them with... but I HATE cheating.
Anyway, I like this one girl at my school who's one year older than me. She's really beautiful, smart, and in orchestra, and I don't know what sexuality she is (obviously). I really like her, and I've shared a couple words once or twice, but she's sending me mixed messages. Now, keep in mind, I've never even been kissed! Well, I've finally perfected my own method of quasi-stalking aka meeting her by chance in the hallways. Before this happened, she would look at me funny and walk away a little bit quicker, but now, just to throw her off, I look at her funny and walk by really fast, to make her think she's the stalker. But the other day, I was walking my friends to class and she rounded the corner really slow. Our eyes met and she was looking at me really... (insert romantic/lustful word here). Yeah. And I'm not the type to think people like me, with my bad body image and low self-esteem, but it SEEMED pretty obvious, but I don't know. How do you find out someone's sexuality subtly? I NEED to know... or it'll be too late! Also, I see her hanging out with guys and girls, and when she walks home, it's alone, so she doesn't wait for anyone. HELP!!!! Please? I don't want to do anything dumb. Thanks!!!
Anyway, I like this one girl at my school who's one year older than me. She's really beautiful, smart, and in orchestra, and I don't know what sexuality she is (obviously). I really like her, and I've shared a couple words once or twice, but she's sending me mixed messages. Now, keep in mind, I've never even been kissed! Well, I've finally perfected my own method of quasi-stalking aka meeting her by chance in the hallways. Before this happened, she would look at me funny and walk away a little bit quicker, but now, just to throw her off, I look at her funny and walk by really fast, to make her think she's the stalker. But the other day, I was walking my friends to class and she rounded the corner really slow. Our eyes met and she was looking at me really... (insert romantic/lustful word here). Yeah. And I'm not the type to think people like me, with my bad body image and low self-esteem, but it SEEMED pretty obvious, but I don't know. How do you find out someone's sexuality subtly? I NEED to know... or it'll be too late! Also, I see her hanging out with guys and girls, and when she walks home, it's alone, so she doesn't wait for anyone. HELP!!!! Please? I don't want to do anything dumb. Thanks!!!