A little better today
I feel a bit better today than I was yesterday. Lots of stress + PMS + feelings of insecurity = unhappy me. I still have the stress and the feelings of insecurity to a smaller degree, but my hormones seem to have equalized a bit and I no longer feel like crying. This next week is still going to be insanely busy, but it now feels a little bit more manageable. I feel like N is back in my corner and I suddenly felt like writing this to him:
I'm not sure where I went
But I know you were there
I know that you saw it
I know you were scared
I wanted to run away
I was desperate to hide
You wanted to hold me
And I know that you tried
You're so good at comforting
I don't like feeling weak
It makes me feel useless,
Childish and meak
But I'm learning to trust you
And depend on you too
To hear the commitment
Of your "I love you"
I think that you mean it
So I'm fighting to stay
It's not really easy
But I'll try every day
That is my promise
And why I'll say "Yes"
And even "I do"
In a pretty white dress
I'm not sure where I went
But I know you were there
I know that you saw it
I know you were scared
I wanted to run away
I was desperate to hide
You wanted to hold me
And I know that you tried
You're so good at comforting
I don't like feeling weak
It makes me feel useless,
Childish and meak
But I'm learning to trust you
And depend on you too
To hear the commitment
Of your "I love you"
I think that you mean it
So I'm fighting to stay
It's not really easy
But I'll try every day
That is my promise
And why I'll say "Yes"
And even "I do"
In a pretty white dress