Re:Breakdown

[bhudduhlicious]

Well folks...today so far has been..hard. It's not even noon yet, and already I am finnally losing it and breaking down. I've been at the house basically all week, so cabin fever is a given. Then I haven't really talked to Sarah at all this week either, and while that seems like a good thing for her and all, and I'm sure it pleases a few other people, it still is driving me crazy. I miss her so much, I can't take it anymore. I've been sitting on my bed the last hour just crying and such, and thankfully no one has decided to bother me. Maybe Larna was right when she said that Sarah was way too mature for me and that I should find someone with my own maturity level. I mean..I don't have anything to offer her right now. I don't want to let her go. It doesn't help that I can't talk to her right now. I just want to curl up and dissapear. I want to go away..for good.

I wish she could comfort me right now. I wish things could be back to normal. I wish I knew what to do to make her happy again. I want nothing more than for her to be happy, I want to be shown how.

Why do I feel so worthless?