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so i was at my lifer high on wednesday.
i might be at a low right now.
but i really dont think i am.
i just feel frustrated.
i hate that everyone expects me to give them 100 percent of my attention when i cant give that much to all of them.
dont get me wrong, im not saying "so many friends, so little time." but lately, i have been forced to make a lot of choices. but no matter what i choose, it always feels wrong. it always ends up that someone else thinks it is wrong.
work is seriously where i am at my happiest sometimes. isnt that disgusting?
i love trenna though. i will never stop. she is the single constant thing in my life that will never change.
at least i hope so.
i just want all of this to be over so i can start my life. and by all of this i mean ALL of it.
It is so difficult to be an adult and do adult things when you are still treated as a child. By everyone. It is impossible to have a big kid relationship when others wont allow it. It is impossible to fulfill big kid responsibilities when others are forcing you to do the childish ones.
i dont know where i am going. im going camping on wednesday. part of me really doesnt want to. but i am positive that it is going to be glorious. i just want to get away from EVERYTHING.
i got a raise. neat.
i really hope that things will be better when they start over.
i am glad that life has a reset button.
i just wish it was easier to get to.
i might be at a low right now.
but i really dont think i am.
i just feel frustrated.
i hate that everyone expects me to give them 100 percent of my attention when i cant give that much to all of them.
dont get me wrong, im not saying "so many friends, so little time." but lately, i have been forced to make a lot of choices. but no matter what i choose, it always feels wrong. it always ends up that someone else thinks it is wrong.
work is seriously where i am at my happiest sometimes. isnt that disgusting?
i love trenna though. i will never stop. she is the single constant thing in my life that will never change.
at least i hope so.
i just want all of this to be over so i can start my life. and by all of this i mean ALL of it.
It is so difficult to be an adult and do adult things when you are still treated as a child. By everyone. It is impossible to have a big kid relationship when others wont allow it. It is impossible to fulfill big kid responsibilities when others are forcing you to do the childish ones.
i dont know where i am going. im going camping on wednesday. part of me really doesnt want to. but i am positive that it is going to be glorious. i just want to get away from EVERYTHING.
i got a raise. neat.
i really hope that things will be better when they start over.
i am glad that life has a reset button.
i just wish it was easier to get to.