i dont know what to do
"D" HAS BEEN GONE FOR ONE YEAR AND I STILL THINK ABOUT HER AND WOUNDER HOW SHE IS ,,,WELL WE TALK SOMETIMES AND I LOVE TO HEAR HER AND I DO MISS HER VERY MUCH I HAVE BEEN THREW SO MUCH WITH CANCER AND A BROKEN HEART I JUST KEEP LOSING WEIGHT AND HOPING TO FINE MY TRUE LOVE I LOSS THE ONE I NEW WAS MY TRUE LOVE BUT I GUESS SHE WASNT BUT I STILL KNOW DEEP DOWN SHE IS AND I HOPE ON DAY I WILL GET TO LET HER KNOW HOW MUCH I TRULY LOVE HER AND SHE WILL LOVE ME BACK SHE TOLD ME SHE WOULD BE BACK FOR MY B-DAY AND I WAITING INTILL THE DAY SHE WALKS BACK INTO MY LIFE SHE IS A 1000 MILES AWAYS AND I WOULD GIVE UP EVERYTHING FOR HER I HAVE A GREAT JOB AND MAKE GOOD MONEY AND I WOULD LOVE FOR HER TO COME BACK HOME I STILL HAVE ALL HER THINGS SHE LEFT AND I LOOK AT HER PIC EVERY DAY I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I DO I WILL DRIVE TO WORK AND HOPE SHE WOULD SHOW UP AT MY JOB SO I COULD STOP ALL THIS SADNESS IN SIDE OF MY HEAD I HOPE SHE READS THIS AND KNOW HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO ME ...I HAVE ONE GIRL HERE WITH ME NAMED DIANNA BUT SHE IS JUST A KID WANT HELP ME WITH THE BILLS AND WANT STOP THE KIDS GAMES ALL SHE WANTS IS ME TO TAKE CARE OF HER BUT I WANT BUT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING AT SOME HOUSE AND I HAVE FOUND ONE AND I HOPING I HAVE IT AT THE FIRST OF THE YEAR IT DOES LOOK GOOD I HOPE SHE WOULD LIKE TO SLOW DOWN AND LET ME GIVE HER A BRAKE ....I WANTED HER TO FINISH COLLAGE BUT SHE DIDNT I THINK SHE SHOULD DANIELLE WAS SO GOOD AT COLLAGE I KNOW I WASNT GOOD TO HER BUT I HAD SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME LIKE CANCER AND SHE DIDNT KNOW THAT BUT I HAVE BEEN DOING BETTER AND SHE DID DO ME WRONG TO LEAVING IN THE CAR FOR WEEKS AND I DID LOSE A JOB BECAUSE OF THAT BUT I WOULD LIKE TO PUT THE PAST IN THE PAST AND LOOK INTO BARK AND SEXY EYES AND SAY I LOVE U AND I WILL NEVER FUCK UP AGAIN I KNOW WHAT I LOST ,,,BUT IF SHE WOULD GET ME A JOB UP THERE I WOULD GO AND BE WITH HER I MISS HOLDING HER AND HER TITTS AT NIGHT KISSING HER SOFT LIPS I JUST WANT TO KNOW IF I WILL EVER HAVE HER BACK IF NOT I WANT TO MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE ,,,BUT I WANT HER PLEASE GOD HELP ME I LOVE HER SO MUCH SHE DONT KNOW .........