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I love going back and reading old saved emails from years ago or journals I'd written about times I'd forgotten about.
I was cleaning up an old email account and I had over 200 saved emails from when Josh and I first starting dating and it brought back so many memories.
Good ones.
Journals, on the other hand, can sometimes have an opposite affect.
I suppose I've grown up A LOT since Josh and I started dating. All that drama, most of which I admit now that I probably instigated.. or at least didn't do my best to put an end to.. was so stupid. I look back 2 years ago and go "man... I was just a kid.. obviously.. or I wouldn't have acted that way."
I guess I've grown as a Christian, a wife, and a person. I guess life is supposed to be full of regrets.. times that when you look back on you go "I wish I hadn't done/said that" and there will probably be so many more, even as an adult.
I just want to take this opportunity to apologize to everyone. There is only so much I can do about the past, which is little. All I can do now is do my best to not repeat mistakes.
I guess the new year is time for reflection. So much has changed, and so much is still the same.
Josh and I are still the same. Just as much in love, if not more so. But other than that, most has changed. I mean it has to your first few years of marriage. We bought a house, have new cars, new jobs, new friends, a new Church, etc. But we continue to grow together. And as things change, we change with them, but our relationship remains the same.
2 people growing together at the same rate in the same way.. like God's love for us.. never changing.
I joined the choir at Church. I so badly want to pursue my dream of being a Christian singer. I really am going to go for it this time. I don't want to sit on this talent and not use it for God. It's my passion, and it's a gift God gave me, and it's not fair to him to do my best to use it.
My grandpa dying has changed my life so much. What I do daily.. how I feel about life and everything thing around me. He's the first person I've ever lost close to me. And I know now how hard it is to lose a loved one.
I'm sorry to everyone out there who has recently lost someone...
I wish it were a perfect world. Where we could all get along and be friends. I know it's not possible. It will never be possible. People are different and live is strange and uncomfortable and even with God as the focal point it can be hard. It should never be that way. You should be able to walk into any Church you want and feel comfortable and welcomed. But it isn't so.
Josh and I are working hard on a charitabe Christian clothing company.
Check them out at ...
www.myspace.com/ardentclothes
and
www.myspace.com/amoreoutfitters
It's still in the works. But it will be awesome.
Anyway it's late and I'm just rambling and I'm almost positive no one is reading this.
I was cleaning up an old email account and I had over 200 saved emails from when Josh and I first starting dating and it brought back so many memories.
Good ones.
Journals, on the other hand, can sometimes have an opposite affect.
I suppose I've grown up A LOT since Josh and I started dating. All that drama, most of which I admit now that I probably instigated.. or at least didn't do my best to put an end to.. was so stupid. I look back 2 years ago and go "man... I was just a kid.. obviously.. or I wouldn't have acted that way."
I guess I've grown as a Christian, a wife, and a person. I guess life is supposed to be full of regrets.. times that when you look back on you go "I wish I hadn't done/said that" and there will probably be so many more, even as an adult.
I just want to take this opportunity to apologize to everyone. There is only so much I can do about the past, which is little. All I can do now is do my best to not repeat mistakes.
I guess the new year is time for reflection. So much has changed, and so much is still the same.
Josh and I are still the same. Just as much in love, if not more so. But other than that, most has changed. I mean it has to your first few years of marriage. We bought a house, have new cars, new jobs, new friends, a new Church, etc. But we continue to grow together. And as things change, we change with them, but our relationship remains the same.
2 people growing together at the same rate in the same way.. like God's love for us.. never changing.
I joined the choir at Church. I so badly want to pursue my dream of being a Christian singer. I really am going to go for it this time. I don't want to sit on this talent and not use it for God. It's my passion, and it's a gift God gave me, and it's not fair to him to do my best to use it.
My grandpa dying has changed my life so much. What I do daily.. how I feel about life and everything thing around me. He's the first person I've ever lost close to me. And I know now how hard it is to lose a loved one.
I'm sorry to everyone out there who has recently lost someone...
I wish it were a perfect world. Where we could all get along and be friends. I know it's not possible. It will never be possible. People are different and live is strange and uncomfortable and even with God as the focal point it can be hard. It should never be that way. You should be able to walk into any Church you want and feel comfortable and welcomed. But it isn't so.
Josh and I are working hard on a charitabe Christian clothing company.
Check them out at ...
www.myspace.com/ardentclothes
and
www.myspace.com/amoreoutfitters
It's still in the works. But it will be awesome.
Anyway it's late and I'm just rambling and I'm almost positive no one is reading this.