Aug 18, 2006 22:13
Oooooh what the hell?! Today has turned out to be one of the worst days I've had in a very long time... and all because of, you guessed it, men. Situation at work today with one of my guy friends...
Guy: You're hateful, you know that?
Me: Sorry, it's just my sarcasm
Guy: well, I realize that, but your sarcasm isn't just normal teasing, it's what you believe.
Me: I can't help it. I'm bitter towards of a lot of things. 'specially guys.
Guy: You can't be, because you have no reason to be.
Me: (raised eyebrow) And you make that statement how after what little bit I've told you?
Guy: Yeah, you've told me stuff, but you believe that about all guys.
Me: Well, I'm jaded... I'll admit it. But I can't help it, I don't trust people and you're untrusted until you can prove to me you can BE trusted.
Guy: (studies me) I've totally just lost a lot of respect for you right there.
(guy stalks off and refuses to talk to me the rest of the shift)
What the hell?! Example A of why I don't freaking talk about my feelings and thoughts with people. I can't help the way I feel. It's good to know that my feelings demeans me in your thoughts and somehow makes me unworthy of your respect. Great... I'm honest for once with someone I don't know very well and get slapped across the face because of it.
Bad situation #2. Previous entry recap. Another guy. Dating girl before shipping out. Girl lives in her own world, doesn't face up to the fact her bf is hurting and scared. Ignores his need to talk. Guy turns to me to talk. Girl gets pissed. Guy gets pissed. Guy develops feelings for me. Girl doesn't know it. Guy continues to talk to me about his problems. Girl gets more pissed. Girl flies off handle, slaps guy in public. Guy calls a break. Girl makes a scene at guy's big event. Guy breaks it off. Girl creates drama, runs mouth to friends... blah blah blah. Lots of games, lots of mouth, lots of bull. I get pissed at guy because he's immature and ignorant. Blah blah blah. K... on with my vent.
I tell this guy I need space to cool off after all this bull. Most people learn that once I actually come around to saying what's on my mind, it's the 100% truth. 20 plus missed calls in three days. I get a message on my phone today with him practically bawling in the phone "I need to talk to you. My life's going to hell and I need to hear your voice." Would've been a good message to get most of the time except I really am still angry and trying to figure out what to do on my part. After the drama at work, I really wasn't in a great mood anyway. Called him back, asked him what was wrong after warning him I wasn't in a great mood and I still really didn't want to talk to him. I thought something might've happened to his grandma who's been sick. Nope, he just "wanted to know what was going on between us." *frustrated sigh* I told him I didn't know because he wouldn't freaking give me my space. I asked him if that's all he called about. He said no, so I asked what else was it. He said don't worry about it, I'll just talk to you later. I said if it was important enough to leave a message like that, then what is it? He said don't worry about it and hung up. *rolls eyes* Calls back 15 minutes later... sorry I hung up on you. Blah blah blah... was upset people had been calling him immature. Hello? lol.... "what's going on between us" hell if i know slick, you're not letting me figure it out.
Moral: Boys are dumb... throw rocks at them. If they're really stupid, throw boulders.