betrayed you with a kiss again, now I am desparate for you brush of grace
isnt amazing how quickly that one should turn from their savior and do exactly the thing He knew we would. Yet, He forgives, this week I had an opportunity to be on TV sharing my "expert opinions" on youth culture and the struggles that teens are facing in these times. I thought I had some interesting things to say, but then the host asked me "what were you like as a teenager?" I got to share my testimony not knowing exactly who would be watching. as it turns out there were a ton of people watching, people who knew me as a "piss tank" "druggie" and the list would go on. After the show about 6-8 of my peers when I was a teen got together and talked about me being on TV and debated about how bad of a guy I was. For those who didnt see the show, could not believe that I was now living for Christ... To be honest I went into that show thinking so highly of myself and now since hearing about this news from old friends I realize I have nothing to brag about but what Christ has done. He grace finds me in my pride and strips me of my own honor. I am realizing now how selfish, and proud I am. Jesus forgive me, not for the sake of being forgiven but that I might change and be renewed.