blahness
our place was trashed, but nothing was taken. it really looked like they just came in, had a wild party, and left. its still really inconsiderate though. that is OUR house and its uncalled for. It has got to stop. We called the police, they're going to be patrolling the house three times a day from now on. Jay said he didnt want me alone in the house again, but April just got back yesterday, and she's leaving again on the 16th to go to Oklahoma City, where Michael will be, until way after Christmas. Isnt it nice that someone doesnt have to work? Yeah, which i also figured out she's lying to me about certain finicial issues to where i have to pay more, and im just figting to stay alive, basically. And she doesnt even give a damn about me. Even Jay can said she doesn't have good intensions. and, shes supposed to be my friend, right, supposed to be, story of my fucking life. So basically, I'm angry that our place keeps getting broke into to, april is lying to my face, and i have noone to talk to. ok, so i do have Jay, and im very thankful for it, but its hard because he lives 300 miles away. so basically, the only person i have that will actually talk to me is in Kentucky. i feel so lonley and betrayed by april, i just dont know what to do. and i went by and tried to collect the money that Samantha owes me, and i was going to be firm about it, too, and then she hands me a sob story of her own, and of course i cant be mean...its just not in me...curse the sensitive nature in me, and curse me lacking a backbone. well, i think im gonna fix myself a flounder sandwich and continue to work on my licensing course for liberty natioanl. i wish jay were here so much right now.