Boys are Stupid
As the title says, boys are stupid.
I was sleeping with this guy, we'll call him Fred, who in turn decided we shouldn't be sleeping with each other. All of that went down through texts of all conversation alternatives, on Saturday right before I went out.
I went out on Saturday and ran into the marine who I met a week before. I hung out with the marine all night, and he seemed really interested in me. I kept my reservations, and expressed to him that he's only in town until next week, then he's off to tour the state for the next two months, how can I take him seriously?
So then on Sunday, Fred decides to change his mind, that we should just keep our lil thing going. I get bent about it, because in my eyes you decided we were done, then changed your mind, and I'm not down with the wishy-washy stuff.
On Sunday I got a text from the marine that he wants to hang out soon, but his work schedule is crazy, but he'll let me know as soon as he gets some time off.
On Monday, I didn't hear from either one.
On Tuesday, I sent the marine a text to see what he was doing that night, and got no response. Then Fred sends me a text asking if I wanted to grab some quick food, so I said sure. We ended up at Taco Bell (who by the way has an extensive dollar menu these days, which is great cause I'm broke), and just chit chatting about work and whatever else was going on.
I was super bored on Tuesday night, and called Justin, who is my male confidant, and just wanted a boys view on some things.
Justin said fuck 'em both, to just go about my merry way and enjoy the life that I have. So then Fred sends me a text message asking what I was doing, while I was on the phone with Justin. Justin told me to just leave it be, and bla bla bla.
So I told Justin that I'm starting to see this marine kid as a douche because it seems to me if you are that interested you would make some time, that it was Tuesday, and we hung out on Saturday. Justin asked what I wanted from the marine, and in reality I just wanted to hang out with him again, and just wanted to sleep with him (he looks like he'd be good in bed, and I'm a horndog, what can I say?).
So Justin decides we're going to send him a text message that will get his attention. We argued about what this text message would say, because Justin is a raunchy boy, but he said we were trying to get his attention. We decided on a text, and I sent it, and Justin said that he guarantees that sometime throughout the night I would definitely receive a response.
I get off the phone with Justin, and Fred starts in on all the text messages.
So I asked him if he was just looking to get laid, and he said no, that it would be nice, but he has gone without before and will be fine. So I asked him what he wanted from everything, and he said all of what? He didn't want anything to change in the first place, that he enjoyed the little thing we had going on.
Then he asks without prying too much, what was I unsure of, what made me not sure of what I want. So I told him I was ready to start dating, that he wants the friends with benefits thing, and those are two conflicting wants. So he asks if I would want to date him, or if it was just in general. I told him it was meant as a general statement.
He responds that he's trying to figure out if I want to see other people, or if I wanted to date him, but that seems to be out of the question, that if I thought he was just stuck on the friends with benefits gig and that's all he wants, that I'm wrong. He didn't want us to just go to that and stop, that he didn't want us to go back any steps. He likes what we had and really likes hanging around me, spending time with me, and he would totally like to date me.
Caught me off guard (even though I should have expected it according to Kathy).
I told him I had reservations about him because of mutual friends, and the fact that I like to keep my personal life very private, and I wasn't sure if that would be a possibility with him, but I could be wrong.
He understood, and didn't understand why it wouldn't be a possibility with him, that nothing would really change between us (since we don't tell anyone we're sleeping with each other).
Then he said that we should have lunch and talk about all of this, because texts just leave too much open. I told him to have a great night, he said the same, and that was the end of it.
Not even a half hour later, my phone starts up with the text messages again. I figured Fred had gone to bed, so I look at my phone, and it's the marine. He's been in the field since Monday morning training, and he hopes his schedule doesn't stay this hectic because he'd really like to hang out, that he'd get a hold of me when he has a free night this week. I felt like an asshole, just for assuming he was a douche bag who wasn't interested.
I also found out that last night Kathy told some gossip bitch at the shop who we think is spreading rumors about us that I'm a lesbian. She hopes that the rumor will get back to me, so that we can prove she's spreading all this shit about us.
That was my night last night. Today, I'm still confused. I still don't know what's going on really.
So as of last night, I'm a lesbian, who's fuck buddy wants to date, and I just want to fuck a marine. Hmmm...we'll see how this turns out.
My only concern with Fred is because I like my personal life private, and he doesn't understand that. He's friends with my brother for one. I know, I know...that hasn't stopped me before, but I never dated one of my brothers' friends, I just slept with them.
I want to meet someone and get to know them, and not worry about if they know people I know or whatever. I want to have the option of introducing them to people if I want to, basically I want someone new.
I want a guy who's going to wow me, and make me want to know more about them. I want a guy who has his own life, and it is in NO WAY intertwined with any of my family members'. Basically I want a person that I can get to know, and enjoy, and have fun with, and I'm just not sure if Fred is that guy.
On the plus side, Fred is an amazing person. He's fun, entertaining, and our personalities click crazy style. I just am not sure, and my reservations are holding strong, so I'm not sure how it's going to end up.
Well, there's an eye full to read, I'll let you know how things go. Luckily I'm house sitting this weekend, and will get to be alone (should I choose), and get away from all the drama.
-Until next time.
I was sleeping with this guy, we'll call him Fred, who in turn decided we shouldn't be sleeping with each other. All of that went down through texts of all conversation alternatives, on Saturday right before I went out.
I went out on Saturday and ran into the marine who I met a week before. I hung out with the marine all night, and he seemed really interested in me. I kept my reservations, and expressed to him that he's only in town until next week, then he's off to tour the state for the next two months, how can I take him seriously?
So then on Sunday, Fred decides to change his mind, that we should just keep our lil thing going. I get bent about it, because in my eyes you decided we were done, then changed your mind, and I'm not down with the wishy-washy stuff.
On Sunday I got a text from the marine that he wants to hang out soon, but his work schedule is crazy, but he'll let me know as soon as he gets some time off.
On Monday, I didn't hear from either one.
On Tuesday, I sent the marine a text to see what he was doing that night, and got no response. Then Fred sends me a text asking if I wanted to grab some quick food, so I said sure. We ended up at Taco Bell (who by the way has an extensive dollar menu these days, which is great cause I'm broke), and just chit chatting about work and whatever else was going on.
I was super bored on Tuesday night, and called Justin, who is my male confidant, and just wanted a boys view on some things.
Justin said fuck 'em both, to just go about my merry way and enjoy the life that I have. So then Fred sends me a text message asking what I was doing, while I was on the phone with Justin. Justin told me to just leave it be, and bla bla bla.
So I told Justin that I'm starting to see this marine kid as a douche because it seems to me if you are that interested you would make some time, that it was Tuesday, and we hung out on Saturday. Justin asked what I wanted from the marine, and in reality I just wanted to hang out with him again, and just wanted to sleep with him (he looks like he'd be good in bed, and I'm a horndog, what can I say?).
So Justin decides we're going to send him a text message that will get his attention. We argued about what this text message would say, because Justin is a raunchy boy, but he said we were trying to get his attention. We decided on a text, and I sent it, and Justin said that he guarantees that sometime throughout the night I would definitely receive a response.
I get off the phone with Justin, and Fred starts in on all the text messages.
So I asked him if he was just looking to get laid, and he said no, that it would be nice, but he has gone without before and will be fine. So I asked him what he wanted from everything, and he said all of what? He didn't want anything to change in the first place, that he enjoyed the little thing we had going on.
Then he asks without prying too much, what was I unsure of, what made me not sure of what I want. So I told him I was ready to start dating, that he wants the friends with benefits thing, and those are two conflicting wants. So he asks if I would want to date him, or if it was just in general. I told him it was meant as a general statement.
He responds that he's trying to figure out if I want to see other people, or if I wanted to date him, but that seems to be out of the question, that if I thought he was just stuck on the friends with benefits gig and that's all he wants, that I'm wrong. He didn't want us to just go to that and stop, that he didn't want us to go back any steps. He likes what we had and really likes hanging around me, spending time with me, and he would totally like to date me.
Caught me off guard (even though I should have expected it according to Kathy).
I told him I had reservations about him because of mutual friends, and the fact that I like to keep my personal life very private, and I wasn't sure if that would be a possibility with him, but I could be wrong.
He understood, and didn't understand why it wouldn't be a possibility with him, that nothing would really change between us (since we don't tell anyone we're sleeping with each other).
Then he said that we should have lunch and talk about all of this, because texts just leave too much open. I told him to have a great night, he said the same, and that was the end of it.
Not even a half hour later, my phone starts up with the text messages again. I figured Fred had gone to bed, so I look at my phone, and it's the marine. He's been in the field since Monday morning training, and he hopes his schedule doesn't stay this hectic because he'd really like to hang out, that he'd get a hold of me when he has a free night this week. I felt like an asshole, just for assuming he was a douche bag who wasn't interested.
I also found out that last night Kathy told some gossip bitch at the shop who we think is spreading rumors about us that I'm a lesbian. She hopes that the rumor will get back to me, so that we can prove she's spreading all this shit about us.
That was my night last night. Today, I'm still confused. I still don't know what's going on really.
So as of last night, I'm a lesbian, who's fuck buddy wants to date, and I just want to fuck a marine. Hmmm...we'll see how this turns out.
My only concern with Fred is because I like my personal life private, and he doesn't understand that. He's friends with my brother for one. I know, I know...that hasn't stopped me before, but I never dated one of my brothers' friends, I just slept with them.
I want to meet someone and get to know them, and not worry about if they know people I know or whatever. I want to have the option of introducing them to people if I want to, basically I want someone new.
I want a guy who's going to wow me, and make me want to know more about them. I want a guy who has his own life, and it is in NO WAY intertwined with any of my family members'. Basically I want a person that I can get to know, and enjoy, and have fun with, and I'm just not sure if Fred is that guy.
On the plus side, Fred is an amazing person. He's fun, entertaining, and our personalities click crazy style. I just am not sure, and my reservations are holding strong, so I'm not sure how it's going to end up.
Well, there's an eye full to read, I'll let you know how things go. Luckily I'm house sitting this weekend, and will get to be alone (should I choose), and get away from all the drama.
-Until next time.