...all of them standing in a row...
I think I have experienced more emotions in the past three weeks than I have in a very long time. I enjoyed my training, and was excited, until I got to start working with out the training, and still with out the girls. I was lost, confused, overwhelmed, and scared. I have never felt like I would fail at something, until then. I am still somewhat lost, very much overwhelmed, and somewhat confused. I am no longer scared, although I am more nervous than anything else.
Today we get to meet the girls. We will see if all of our prep. work pays off, and I will get to see the three-feet tall, smiling faces, eager to learn children that I am so nervous to meet. My goal today is not to shy up, or freeze...I want to just go in there as the ball of energy that I usually am...we shall see.
My life is slowly starting again. School starts next Thursday, and it should be interesting. I am so excited, but sooo not. I am ready though, to start, and complete my senior year of college, hopefully with a 3.0 or higher.
Work, I already spoke of...I just have to work on time management, and adjusting to how much freedom we are given in this position.
Family- my soon to be nephew Chad is tryin to break outta his mom's belly, she's been going through labor pains for a while now, but he's not due until the end of October. My sister is going to name her baby after me =) I am ECSTATIC...although, we will have to wait and see if she does it. She said if it's born on my birthday then yes, they will...but I want to see if it's not born on my birthday, what they will name it. They're not sure if it's a boy or a girl, and now they don't want to know. Although I would like a girl, they want to name her Anza and I ADORE that name...and with the middle name of Lu after their auntie Lu...I love it even more! haha
Living Situation- it's fine...no real news. We're goin to throw a Halloween party...last year's Halloween party here was CRAZY...so we'll see.
Love Life- it's interesting. Justin and I hung out for the first time by ourselves. He asked me out on a date, and I met him at his house, and both of us decided we didn't really want to do anything, so we lounged and watched movies...it was so much fun. I had a really good time.
This is the first guy in a long time who has gone pretty slow...and I don't think I'm used to that, but I dig it. He didn't kiss me on Saturday, and I thought something was wrong with me...haha. The thing I like about him is that he is completely open and honest with me...I have asked him some OFF THE WALL questions, and he just answers like I asked him what he did that day.
So I was going to ask him...why he didn't try to kiss me...but he beat me to it, haha. When I was leaving, he gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, which was cute. Then he told me that he didn't want to seem too forward, so that's why he kissed me on my cheek.
so, yea...that's that. He's comin over for dinner some time this week, which will be fun.
let's see...what else...
I think that's it...covers most bases of my life. I think I'm goin to make somethin to eat, take a shower, wear something that won't show how nervous I am to meet these kids...and it's so funny b/c kids are the most accepting people ever...but I think b/c they are all returning, and they don't know who I am, I am kinda nervous.
alright, I am off.
until next time.
Today we get to meet the girls. We will see if all of our prep. work pays off, and I will get to see the three-feet tall, smiling faces, eager to learn children that I am so nervous to meet. My goal today is not to shy up, or freeze...I want to just go in there as the ball of energy that I usually am...we shall see.
My life is slowly starting again. School starts next Thursday, and it should be interesting. I am so excited, but sooo not. I am ready though, to start, and complete my senior year of college, hopefully with a 3.0 or higher.
Work, I already spoke of...I just have to work on time management, and adjusting to how much freedom we are given in this position.
Family- my soon to be nephew Chad is tryin to break outta his mom's belly, she's been going through labor pains for a while now, but he's not due until the end of October. My sister is going to name her baby after me =) I am ECSTATIC...although, we will have to wait and see if she does it. She said if it's born on my birthday then yes, they will...but I want to see if it's not born on my birthday, what they will name it. They're not sure if it's a boy or a girl, and now they don't want to know. Although I would like a girl, they want to name her Anza and I ADORE that name...and with the middle name of Lu after their auntie Lu...I love it even more! haha
Living Situation- it's fine...no real news. We're goin to throw a Halloween party...last year's Halloween party here was CRAZY...so we'll see.
Love Life- it's interesting. Justin and I hung out for the first time by ourselves. He asked me out on a date, and I met him at his house, and both of us decided we didn't really want to do anything, so we lounged and watched movies...it was so much fun. I had a really good time.
This is the first guy in a long time who has gone pretty slow...and I don't think I'm used to that, but I dig it. He didn't kiss me on Saturday, and I thought something was wrong with me...haha. The thing I like about him is that he is completely open and honest with me...I have asked him some OFF THE WALL questions, and he just answers like I asked him what he did that day.
So I was going to ask him...why he didn't try to kiss me...but he beat me to it, haha. When I was leaving, he gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek, which was cute. Then he told me that he didn't want to seem too forward, so that's why he kissed me on my cheek.
so, yea...that's that. He's comin over for dinner some time this week, which will be fun.
let's see...what else...
I think that's it...covers most bases of my life. I think I'm goin to make somethin to eat, take a shower, wear something that won't show how nervous I am to meet these kids...and it's so funny b/c kids are the most accepting people ever...but I think b/c they are all returning, and they don't know who I am, I am kinda nervous.
alright, I am off.
until next time.