My brilliant plan is falling to pieces!
Remember that amazing plan I had of not dating anyone... ever? Yea, I've hit a road block.... I think I like someone. I'm not gonna say who that person is... and I dont even know if they like me. But still, I like them. And according to the plan... I am not supposed to do this. The problem is is that I believe that if God sends you something good... you take it and enjoy it (not in a dirty way you gutter minded people!). And if it turns out that this guy is interested in me... it would be a good thing. He's mr. Nice Guy... he's one of those guys that would do anything for someone he cared about. Today he was sitting by me, and outta no where he told me I looked pretty! So I don't really know what to do. I guess the first thing I should do is find out if he even is interested and then worry about what to do about the plan. For all I know he could just see me as a really close friend. And last night I was doing my nightly Bible Diary thing, and the verse I randomly picked was about changing your life style to fit God's plan. I think God is telling me that I will have plenty of time for sex when I am older, and that I don't need to add that stress onto my life. (I am going to continue taking the pill however because it made my boobs grow and i am afraid if I go off it they will shrink.) So yea. Maybe good is testing me with this guy and seeing if I can handle it. Or maybe he wants me to date him so that he can prove to me that relationships can be good. Or maybe he wants me to go out with him and then put me in a "situation" and make me have to say no... even if I want to say "yes". Maybe I should pray about it...