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so iñm sittin ghere listening to some music, well, ive got my playlist on random , so thats pretty cool .i´ve been doing alot of thinking lately, been doing alot of.. talking.. i´m not quite sure what to say or do.. i dunno.
life in spain is well.. shit :D hahahha i worked it out tonight that when i was working my fucking arse off in the bar as the manager, i was only getting paid 1.96 an hour !!! thats a bit poo innit :D hahahahha what a waste of life :( i used to be worth so much more in the uk.. i dont know what the fuck i am doing here ?
vodka solves everything. thats my name on msn tonight.. its quite appropriate really considering i have drunk almost half a bottle. is it sad sitting at home drinking alone ? my stomach hurts. i dunno. i dont feel drunk it just hurts. fuckit, i want to cut it out with a rusty spoon ;)
well i live in spain. and its shitty. i cant find a job, i have no decent friends, i drink too much. i shouted at my mum yesterday..cos she just didn´t "get it".. what is "it" ?
its life in general. i hate my life. i hate the cars i´ve bought. i hate the way i live, i hate not having a job, i hate no having a life, i hate existing. i want to LIVE !!! i want to have fun. i want something to show for these years work. i want something good to show for all the hours i´ve put in. what do i have ? nothing. i was thinking about maybe joining easyjet or some such equally strange organistation and travelling in-between... the benifit of such being that i would get to be in the uk more than i do now, and that i would be paid in pounds !!! that would be excellent - living in spain but getting uk wages !!! do you know that the average wage in spain is 7000 a year ? thats right, SEVEN THOUSAND EUROS!!!! a year :( thats fuck all.. not even worth getting out of bed for. i tell u waht, i wouldn´t of done it in the uk, i´d rather be jobless.
i love the uk. seeing what the differences are now, with the uk and spain, i would much rather live in the uk. i couldn´t see it before, but now, having experienced the two, i know where i would rather be. yes, the buildings are "greyer". the climate is not so good. the quality of life ? if you are not a retired, G&T drinking, rose tinted glasses wearing OAP motherfucker, then the uk is just as good as spain. ok so it hasn´t got the sunshine. fuckit, i´ll buy my parents an apartment by the beach that they can retire to. im not fucking retired, why are they doing this to me ? why do i have to live in this fucking shitty place, when all i want to do is earn my money and make my mark on life ? i dont want to struggle to get by with one day per month of work.. i want to do my 9 to 5, i want that. i want to be able to say "this is what i´ve earned this month and this is what i have achieved with it. no1 seems to understand that. before i was moving to spain, i was accepted to study at plymouth university, to study a "diasaster management" course. if i had been doing that i would of been able to help in the 911 and tsunami disasters. instead i am scraping by with 50 quid a month, trying as much as i can to work my fucking arse off.. it just doesnt pay here.. theres no ...oppertunity. spanish people are very biased towards the english, well, towards the foreigner, but in particular the english. you never see in the paper "english speaking person wanted", its always spanish person that speaks english. work oppertunities here are so small its completly pointless even applying for jobs. i know maybe 5 people that work for spanish companies. i know another 20 that work for english ones. then i know about 50 that work for them selves and charge a fortune for their "services". its always the english ripping off the english. i know a builder that charged 30,000 euros for an extension on a house, thats a whole 2 rooms!!! 15,000 a room!!! how mad is that. sky dishes, cost 300 ish from the wholesaler, and installed cost 599. thats 300 euro profit for fitting a dish, thats 4 bolts, and then running a cable, 20 ish cable clips, and connecting it all up and pointing the dish, fuck all and u get paid loads !
i dunno what i am writing this for, no1 reads it do they ? nevermind, its here for me, i´m "venting" my anger.. i need to do it some way apart from hitting the metal gate or the solid doors or the wall... hmmm. cant be healthy.
i never got mugged in the uk, despìte all the crime and violence that is apparently rife.. i never got my wallet stolen or my gold chain nicked.. oh no, but its safer in spain, dont you know ? fucking bullshit. theres gangs of armed muggers wandering around the streets of malaga aged 11 !!! thats certainly unmatched in the uk. i´ve been mugged 3 times in spain. once by some blokes who wanted my wallet.. the second time by the policia local, and the third time by the guardia civil, that was the worst one, i was beaten shitless. see if this happened in the uk it would be a case of police brutality. in spain it is your word against his. and you will not win. you can not win. the police / guardia were reprimanded by the judge in the court, but i was still charged, but released on bail. i was on a 2 year probation, for assulting a police officer. the fact that 6 of them beat me to the ground with nightsticks is irrelevant. i have pictures to prove it, baton marks and boot prints on my back.and a missing tooth. i cant prove anything, obviously, and am not invited to try. this would never happen in the uk.
alcohol is cheaper in the spanish supermarkets than the english ones as well, only just, but it is. a bottle of vodka or gin is €4,30 - 3 pounds a bottle ish. but thats about it, everything else, despite the media hype, is more expensive than the uk. not alot of things are cheaper here in spain. tabbacco / ciggies / alcohol is slightly cheaper. rates are cheaper (and it shows, you seen the state of the roads ??!?!?!!), but everything else, gas, water, electric, telephone, cars, the internet... its all at least 1.5 / 2 times more expensive than the uk. why the fuck did we move here ? the fucking sunshine ? bollox to that. i hate the sun, its too fucking hot.
ahh i´m getting frustrated and bored and angry and annoyed and.. grrrrrrrrr i´m not gonna write any more i mite throw the computer out the fucking window !!!!
life in spain is well.. shit :D hahahha i worked it out tonight that when i was working my fucking arse off in the bar as the manager, i was only getting paid 1.96 an hour !!! thats a bit poo innit :D hahahahha what a waste of life :( i used to be worth so much more in the uk.. i dont know what the fuck i am doing here ?
vodka solves everything. thats my name on msn tonight.. its quite appropriate really considering i have drunk almost half a bottle. is it sad sitting at home drinking alone ? my stomach hurts. i dunno. i dont feel drunk it just hurts. fuckit, i want to cut it out with a rusty spoon ;)
well i live in spain. and its shitty. i cant find a job, i have no decent friends, i drink too much. i shouted at my mum yesterday..cos she just didn´t "get it".. what is "it" ?
its life in general. i hate my life. i hate the cars i´ve bought. i hate the way i live, i hate not having a job, i hate no having a life, i hate existing. i want to LIVE !!! i want to have fun. i want something to show for these years work. i want something good to show for all the hours i´ve put in. what do i have ? nothing. i was thinking about maybe joining easyjet or some such equally strange organistation and travelling in-between... the benifit of such being that i would get to be in the uk more than i do now, and that i would be paid in pounds !!! that would be excellent - living in spain but getting uk wages !!! do you know that the average wage in spain is 7000 a year ? thats right, SEVEN THOUSAND EUROS!!!! a year :( thats fuck all.. not even worth getting out of bed for. i tell u waht, i wouldn´t of done it in the uk, i´d rather be jobless.
i love the uk. seeing what the differences are now, with the uk and spain, i would much rather live in the uk. i couldn´t see it before, but now, having experienced the two, i know where i would rather be. yes, the buildings are "greyer". the climate is not so good. the quality of life ? if you are not a retired, G&T drinking, rose tinted glasses wearing OAP motherfucker, then the uk is just as good as spain. ok so it hasn´t got the sunshine. fuckit, i´ll buy my parents an apartment by the beach that they can retire to. im not fucking retired, why are they doing this to me ? why do i have to live in this fucking shitty place, when all i want to do is earn my money and make my mark on life ? i dont want to struggle to get by with one day per month of work.. i want to do my 9 to 5, i want that. i want to be able to say "this is what i´ve earned this month and this is what i have achieved with it. no1 seems to understand that. before i was moving to spain, i was accepted to study at plymouth university, to study a "diasaster management" course. if i had been doing that i would of been able to help in the 911 and tsunami disasters. instead i am scraping by with 50 quid a month, trying as much as i can to work my fucking arse off.. it just doesnt pay here.. theres no ...oppertunity. spanish people are very biased towards the english, well, towards the foreigner, but in particular the english. you never see in the paper "english speaking person wanted", its always spanish person that speaks english. work oppertunities here are so small its completly pointless even applying for jobs. i know maybe 5 people that work for spanish companies. i know another 20 that work for english ones. then i know about 50 that work for them selves and charge a fortune for their "services". its always the english ripping off the english. i know a builder that charged 30,000 euros for an extension on a house, thats a whole 2 rooms!!! 15,000 a room!!! how mad is that. sky dishes, cost 300 ish from the wholesaler, and installed cost 599. thats 300 euro profit for fitting a dish, thats 4 bolts, and then running a cable, 20 ish cable clips, and connecting it all up and pointing the dish, fuck all and u get paid loads !
i dunno what i am writing this for, no1 reads it do they ? nevermind, its here for me, i´m "venting" my anger.. i need to do it some way apart from hitting the metal gate or the solid doors or the wall... hmmm. cant be healthy.
i never got mugged in the uk, despìte all the crime and violence that is apparently rife.. i never got my wallet stolen or my gold chain nicked.. oh no, but its safer in spain, dont you know ? fucking bullshit. theres gangs of armed muggers wandering around the streets of malaga aged 11 !!! thats certainly unmatched in the uk. i´ve been mugged 3 times in spain. once by some blokes who wanted my wallet.. the second time by the policia local, and the third time by the guardia civil, that was the worst one, i was beaten shitless. see if this happened in the uk it would be a case of police brutality. in spain it is your word against his. and you will not win. you can not win. the police / guardia were reprimanded by the judge in the court, but i was still charged, but released on bail. i was on a 2 year probation, for assulting a police officer. the fact that 6 of them beat me to the ground with nightsticks is irrelevant. i have pictures to prove it, baton marks and boot prints on my back.and a missing tooth. i cant prove anything, obviously, and am not invited to try. this would never happen in the uk.
alcohol is cheaper in the spanish supermarkets than the english ones as well, only just, but it is. a bottle of vodka or gin is €4,30 - 3 pounds a bottle ish. but thats about it, everything else, despite the media hype, is more expensive than the uk. not alot of things are cheaper here in spain. tabbacco / ciggies / alcohol is slightly cheaper. rates are cheaper (and it shows, you seen the state of the roads ??!?!?!!), but everything else, gas, water, electric, telephone, cars, the internet... its all at least 1.5 / 2 times more expensive than the uk. why the fuck did we move here ? the fucking sunshine ? bollox to that. i hate the sun, its too fucking hot.
ahh i´m getting frustrated and bored and angry and annoyed and.. grrrrrrrrr i´m not gonna write any more i mite throw the computer out the fucking window !!!!