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I went to RPHS for an assignment. I've had to do three classroom observations this year, and I managed to do the first two at places other than the high school (I did one at Central Elementary, and one at an elementary school in the Muskegon school district). However, this one I had to do in a special ed. classroom, and I didn't know who to call other than Mr. Beckeman.
Walking through the halls between classes was...surreal. I felt very...mature (or maybe old is a better word). It's just hard to believe that two years ago I was walking through those halls, hanging out with friends, worrying about college, gossiping about whatever was going on at the moment. For some reason, I also expected to know people. However, walking through the halls there were very few people I even recognized. What was really sad for me was that I walked by several of my favorite teachers, and none of them appeared to recognize me. Granted, they were probably not expecting to see me, but it was still a little depressing.
I feel like I'm not the person I was back then. I know we're supposed to grow up, to change a little, to find who we really are. But was I so unhappy with who I was? I swore I would never lose touch with those people who mattered so much to me in high school. And I haven't, not really. I still talk to those who matter most to me: Ryan, Mal, occasionally Sarah, and a few others. But it's not the same. I could (and do) go several months without talking to them, and it's not the end of the world. Now my world rotates around others. Will I lose them to time too?
Bah. Too deep for me right now.
On another, more amusing note, apparently I've gone from just plain single to single and horribly desperate. I don't know when I started to put out this vibe, or why, but it's definitely the vibe I'm giving off. I don't even know how many times I've had people tell me I should "hook up" with "so-and-so", that I should date "this guy", that I WILL date "him", that "he" would be perfect for me, etc. For future reference, before telling me these things, make sure that they meet the following criteria 1. That there is a possibility that I would ever date said guy, and that 2. he would not be completely adverse to dating me. It seems like these guys are never meeting these criteria. As a matter of fact, only one guy has even fallen into category 1. Possibilities? We'll see.
"At some point in your life you're gonna have to decide that some guy is worth opening that front door for. I am just volunteering."
-Max, Gilmore Girls
Walking through the halls between classes was...surreal. I felt very...mature (or maybe old is a better word). It's just hard to believe that two years ago I was walking through those halls, hanging out with friends, worrying about college, gossiping about whatever was going on at the moment. For some reason, I also expected to know people. However, walking through the halls there were very few people I even recognized. What was really sad for me was that I walked by several of my favorite teachers, and none of them appeared to recognize me. Granted, they were probably not expecting to see me, but it was still a little depressing.
I feel like I'm not the person I was back then. I know we're supposed to grow up, to change a little, to find who we really are. But was I so unhappy with who I was? I swore I would never lose touch with those people who mattered so much to me in high school. And I haven't, not really. I still talk to those who matter most to me: Ryan, Mal, occasionally Sarah, and a few others. But it's not the same. I could (and do) go several months without talking to them, and it's not the end of the world. Now my world rotates around others. Will I lose them to time too?
Bah. Too deep for me right now.
On another, more amusing note, apparently I've gone from just plain single to single and horribly desperate. I don't know when I started to put out this vibe, or why, but it's definitely the vibe I'm giving off. I don't even know how many times I've had people tell me I should "hook up" with "so-and-so", that I should date "this guy", that I WILL date "him", that "he" would be perfect for me, etc. For future reference, before telling me these things, make sure that they meet the following criteria 1. That there is a possibility that I would ever date said guy, and that 2. he would not be completely adverse to dating me. It seems like these guys are never meeting these criteria. As a matter of fact, only one guy has even fallen into category 1. Possibilities? We'll see.
"At some point in your life you're gonna have to decide that some guy is worth opening that front door for. I am just volunteering."
-Max, Gilmore Girls