Ikitomo Chapter 20
A/N: God kids already 20 Chapters? xD
Chapter 20
Soundtrack: ONE OK ROCK - Wherever you are
The weeks flew by and since that very day he had woken up Aizawa-sensei was always by his side.
They ate together, he helped him with the rehab and even with showering.
It was strange that he didn't feel embarrassed around the doctor. He even felt comfortable when he was with him and he came to like the doctor. He was very kind and seemed to care for him a lot, just sometimes the gaze he gave him confused him and Ryosuke didn't understand why he was looking at him that way.
He learned about his friends, who came pretty often. They told him about the campus and the studies they had done together. And about everything he couldn't remember.
Then somewhen, it's been two weeks since he'd woken up they ate breakfast and then Aizawa-sensei examined his heartbeat as always.
Since he slept until Aizawa came his hair and everything was still messy and so noticed Aizawa-sensei:
“Haha, look at yourself. Your hair's all messy”, he said and brushed a strand of hair out of Ryosuke's face, which kinda felt nice to him.
The doctor was always so careful and gentle when he touched him and suddenly he felt the urge to keep the touch so he grabbed Aizawa's arm and held it in place, looking at him.
Aizawa's hand slowly slid down Ryosuke's cheek and it felt so nice to feel the warmth of the other's skin, so he leaned his head against the hand and closed his eyes.
He didn't know why he did that, he also didn't know why he enjoyed the doctor's touch that much, but he didn't care that much either, there was nothing wrong with it, right?
They stayed like this for some seconds as Ryosuke suddenly felt something on his lips. Ryosuke opened his eyes and discovered that the doctor was actually kissing him.
His eyes grew wide and his head felt dizzy as suddenly a voice rang in his ears: “... Ryosuke” a soft voice whispered.
But as fast as it came it was gone and so were Aizawa's lips.
He stared at him in shock for a moment, then mumbled 'I'm sorry' and dashed out of the room, leaving Ryosuke alone and more confused than ever.
It took him a whole lot of time to actually realize what just happened. Aizawa-sensei had kissed him... why had he done that?
And why... did it feel so familiar like everything which was connected to Aizawa?
He raised his hand and touched his lips, but then he remembered that strange voice, which he'd heard.
It was saying his name... but he couldn't sort in, whose voice it was... but it sounded so unbelievably soft and caring. He even wished he could hear that voice again.
Later that day a nurse came and brought lunch for him. Ryosuke was disappointed that Aizawa-sensei didn't come to eat with him.
“Yuki-san, why didn't Aizawa-sensei come to eat with me?”, he asked between two bites.
She looked at him and smiled. “He didn't have time, he said, but he made sure that I would eat with you instead.”
“Hm... I see”, Ryosuke replied and looked down at his food, somehow it didn't taste as good as when he was eating with the young doctor. He wondered why he suddenly wouldn't have time for him anymore... it made him sad.
“You know, before you that incident you two were pretty close. I think you were good friends. It must be hard for him that you can't remember anything, but still he cares for you like that. He is really an awesome person, Aizawa-sensei.”, Yuki said and smiled.
Now Ryosuke was even more confused because on the first day, Ryosuke could clearly remember, Aizawa-sensei had said that they hadn't been friends.
Why should he have lied back then?
Later that day Aizawa-sensei still hasn't shown up and Ryosuke wondered if it was because of the kiss.
Actually it was weird that Ryosuke DIDN'T find it weird that he had kissed him...
He had also tried to figure out whose voice it had been that he had heard at that moment.
He tried to recall it exactly... something was strange about it.
Then he suddenly remembered how Aizawa-sensei had said his name this morning... in his head he compared the voices just to realize that they were actually the same.
It was all so confusing... He remembered something about that young doctor just in that kind of moments... he wanted to know what was behind all this.
So he decided to visit Aizawa in the evening. He grabbed his crutch and slowly made his way to Aizawa's room.
As he arrived he waited for a moment, took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
He just had to find out what all of that meant.
“Yes?”, he heard Aizawa-sensei say and so he entered the room, seeing the doctor stare at him as he saw him.
“Ryosuke? Why...? You shouldn't go out alone like that!”, he said and rose from his chair.
“I'm ok.”, Ryosuke replied and walked towards the doctor, making him shift uncomfortably.
But then he stumbled as his muscles were still very weak, but he was lucky that Aizawa was fast enough and caught him before he reached the ground.
“Can't you be more careful?”, he hissed and helped him to sit down on the bed on the wall.
Ryosuke looked at him and somehow this situation felt like a dejavu. As their eyes met, Aizawa turned around and began sorting some papers on his desk.
“Aizawa-sensei... why did you lie? Why... did you say we weren't friends? Yuki told me that we used to be close and... you even care for me like that, so why did you say that before?”, Ryosuke asked, trying to lock his gaze into Aizawa's.
Aizawa turned around but still avoided his gaze. “I'm sorry. I just... didn't want to influence you... with that. I don't want to force you to remember...”
Ryosuke smiled at that. “But you know! Just then when... you kissed me.... I remembered something!” Ryosuke stated and smiled.
Aizawa now looked at him directly, then walked towards him and bent down to match his height . “What? What did you remember?”, he asked and breathed in heavily.
“It was your voice... you were saying my name....”, he answered and looked into the other's eyes.
“You see... all the weeks I didn't remember anything but that time... I did... maybe... maybe it has something to do with you… I know... it's a weird request, but... could you please... kiss me again?”
Ryosuke gulped as he saw Aizawa's face.
It was like a hundred emotions were running over his face but he didn't know what they meant.
Then Aizawa straightened again and looked at the wall. “No”, he simply said.
“But... but... why? I mean... don't you want me to remember you?”, Ryosuke whined and pouted a bit.
Suddenly Aizawa bent down, pressed him lightly against the wall and kissed him again. And Ryosuke's heart skipped a beat for a second as he closed his eyes.
But the feeling was over too fast and Aizawa let got of him and looked into his eyes and sighed. His eyes showed such a sadness that it hurt Ryosuke already.
“...what if I loved you?”
Chapter 20
Soundtrack: ONE OK ROCK - Wherever you are
The weeks flew by and since that very day he had woken up Aizawa-sensei was always by his side.
They ate together, he helped him with the rehab and even with showering.
It was strange that he didn't feel embarrassed around the doctor. He even felt comfortable when he was with him and he came to like the doctor. He was very kind and seemed to care for him a lot, just sometimes the gaze he gave him confused him and Ryosuke didn't understand why he was looking at him that way.
He learned about his friends, who came pretty often. They told him about the campus and the studies they had done together. And about everything he couldn't remember.
Then somewhen, it's been two weeks since he'd woken up they ate breakfast and then Aizawa-sensei examined his heartbeat as always.
Since he slept until Aizawa came his hair and everything was still messy and so noticed Aizawa-sensei:
“Haha, look at yourself. Your hair's all messy”, he said and brushed a strand of hair out of Ryosuke's face, which kinda felt nice to him.
The doctor was always so careful and gentle when he touched him and suddenly he felt the urge to keep the touch so he grabbed Aizawa's arm and held it in place, looking at him.
Aizawa's hand slowly slid down Ryosuke's cheek and it felt so nice to feel the warmth of the other's skin, so he leaned his head against the hand and closed his eyes.
He didn't know why he did that, he also didn't know why he enjoyed the doctor's touch that much, but he didn't care that much either, there was nothing wrong with it, right?
They stayed like this for some seconds as Ryosuke suddenly felt something on his lips. Ryosuke opened his eyes and discovered that the doctor was actually kissing him.
His eyes grew wide and his head felt dizzy as suddenly a voice rang in his ears: “... Ryosuke” a soft voice whispered.
But as fast as it came it was gone and so were Aizawa's lips.
He stared at him in shock for a moment, then mumbled 'I'm sorry' and dashed out of the room, leaving Ryosuke alone and more confused than ever.
It took him a whole lot of time to actually realize what just happened. Aizawa-sensei had kissed him... why had he done that?
And why... did it feel so familiar like everything which was connected to Aizawa?
He raised his hand and touched his lips, but then he remembered that strange voice, which he'd heard.
It was saying his name... but he couldn't sort in, whose voice it was... but it sounded so unbelievably soft and caring. He even wished he could hear that voice again.
Later that day a nurse came and brought lunch for him. Ryosuke was disappointed that Aizawa-sensei didn't come to eat with him.
“Yuki-san, why didn't Aizawa-sensei come to eat with me?”, he asked between two bites.
She looked at him and smiled. “He didn't have time, he said, but he made sure that I would eat with you instead.”
“Hm... I see”, Ryosuke replied and looked down at his food, somehow it didn't taste as good as when he was eating with the young doctor. He wondered why he suddenly wouldn't have time for him anymore... it made him sad.
“You know, before you that incident you two were pretty close. I think you were good friends. It must be hard for him that you can't remember anything, but still he cares for you like that. He is really an awesome person, Aizawa-sensei.”, Yuki said and smiled.
Now Ryosuke was even more confused because on the first day, Ryosuke could clearly remember, Aizawa-sensei had said that they hadn't been friends.
Why should he have lied back then?
Later that day Aizawa-sensei still hasn't shown up and Ryosuke wondered if it was because of the kiss.
Actually it was weird that Ryosuke DIDN'T find it weird that he had kissed him...
He had also tried to figure out whose voice it had been that he had heard at that moment.
He tried to recall it exactly... something was strange about it.
Then he suddenly remembered how Aizawa-sensei had said his name this morning... in his head he compared the voices just to realize that they were actually the same.
It was all so confusing... He remembered something about that young doctor just in that kind of moments... he wanted to know what was behind all this.
So he decided to visit Aizawa in the evening. He grabbed his crutch and slowly made his way to Aizawa's room.
As he arrived he waited for a moment, took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
He just had to find out what all of that meant.
“Yes?”, he heard Aizawa-sensei say and so he entered the room, seeing the doctor stare at him as he saw him.
“Ryosuke? Why...? You shouldn't go out alone like that!”, he said and rose from his chair.
“I'm ok.”, Ryosuke replied and walked towards the doctor, making him shift uncomfortably.
But then he stumbled as his muscles were still very weak, but he was lucky that Aizawa was fast enough and caught him before he reached the ground.
“Can't you be more careful?”, he hissed and helped him to sit down on the bed on the wall.
Ryosuke looked at him and somehow this situation felt like a dejavu. As their eyes met, Aizawa turned around and began sorting some papers on his desk.
“Aizawa-sensei... why did you lie? Why... did you say we weren't friends? Yuki told me that we used to be close and... you even care for me like that, so why did you say that before?”, Ryosuke asked, trying to lock his gaze into Aizawa's.
Aizawa turned around but still avoided his gaze. “I'm sorry. I just... didn't want to influence you... with that. I don't want to force you to remember...”
Ryosuke smiled at that. “But you know! Just then when... you kissed me.... I remembered something!” Ryosuke stated and smiled.
Aizawa now looked at him directly, then walked towards him and bent down to match his height . “What? What did you remember?”, he asked and breathed in heavily.
“It was your voice... you were saying my name....”, he answered and looked into the other's eyes.
“You see... all the weeks I didn't remember anything but that time... I did... maybe... maybe it has something to do with you… I know... it's a weird request, but... could you please... kiss me again?”
Ryosuke gulped as he saw Aizawa's face.
It was like a hundred emotions were running over his face but he didn't know what they meant.
Then Aizawa straightened again and looked at the wall. “No”, he simply said.
“But... but... why? I mean... don't you want me to remember you?”, Ryosuke whined and pouted a bit.
Suddenly Aizawa bent down, pressed him lightly against the wall and kissed him again. And Ryosuke's heart skipped a beat for a second as he closed his eyes.
But the feeling was over too fast and Aizawa let got of him and looked into his eyes and sighed. His eyes showed such a sadness that it hurt Ryosuke already.
“...what if I loved you?”